Amphetamine
It's funny. My insides feel like they are on fire. Burning from the inside out. Last night, I actually fell out of bed thinking I was on fire. And I had almost fallen asleep before that. Small intervals adding up to an hour. I thought that was decent.
I'd be lost without Katie. and Kisses McGee. Mitchell tried to help too, but getting comforted by an ex kind of made things worse. And when Rosie and Lauren got there, it was just too much. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the gestures... but there were only two people I wanted to talk to: Katie and Tigs.
I didn't cry today. I kept it in a bottle. Esspecially when I saw him. I managed to avoid him by running for almost two hours. The four hour drive to and from PA by myself pretty much guarantees the bottle will burst shortly. I hope people are available for phone calls on my trip. I might not make it alone.
Today felt surreal. These past two days have felt surreal.
I give up. I am going back to hibernating during the winter.
I'd be lost without Katie. and Kisses McGee. Mitchell tried to help too, but getting comforted by an ex kind of made things worse. And when Rosie and Lauren got there, it was just too much. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the gestures... but there were only two people I wanted to talk to: Katie and Tigs.
I didn't cry today. I kept it in a bottle. Esspecially when I saw him. I managed to avoid him by running for almost two hours. The four hour drive to and from PA by myself pretty much guarantees the bottle will burst shortly. I hope people are available for phone calls on my trip. I might not make it alone.
Today felt surreal. These past two days have felt surreal.
I give up. I am going back to hibernating during the winter.