Gosh, annoying...
hmmm i sorta want to go back to Vermont. i mean, i'm loving seeing everyone...and i've spent time with SO many of the people i love, but Scottsdale just isn't my home anymore. I feel so ridiculous considering four months ago i was pretty much crying about how I never want to leave. It's not that things have changed at all (things actually seem almost exactly the same), and I still know a ton of people here, but it's just not my place anymore (and I'm not sure if I like that)
and it's weird, i cut my hair pretty significantly (at least to me), and i really don't feel like myself anymore. it's really silly, i know, but to me, Kelly Bennion without her long "bouncy hair" (as people sort of characterize me by) isn't really Kelly Bennion. but whatever, it'll grow back. i should've just cut 10 inches off all at one time and donated it!
it kinda feels like when i go to Vermont, my life just gets put on hold...and then i come back, and everything is the same, except i'm not really supposed to be here anymore. it's so weird that calling Vermont "home" and saying "I'm going HOME on january 1st" is really normal to me...
and, i'm really disappointed in myself for not knowing that one of my best friends went through depression this semester and I didn't know it. seriously, i should've known and tried something to help...even though she says it isn't my job.
on the bright side, i found out that zach and i are on the same flight to St. Louis (which is pretty much the most random thing EVER)...so i'm SUPER excited for that.
and it's weird, i cut my hair pretty significantly (at least to me), and i really don't feel like myself anymore. it's really silly, i know, but to me, Kelly Bennion without her long "bouncy hair" (as people sort of characterize me by) isn't really Kelly Bennion. but whatever, it'll grow back. i should've just cut 10 inches off all at one time and donated it!
it kinda feels like when i go to Vermont, my life just gets put on hold...and then i come back, and everything is the same, except i'm not really supposed to be here anymore. it's so weird that calling Vermont "home" and saying "I'm going HOME on january 1st" is really normal to me...
and, i'm really disappointed in myself for not knowing that one of my best friends went through depression this semester and I didn't know it. seriously, i should've known and tried something to help...even though she says it isn't my job.
on the bright side, i found out that zach and i are on the same flight to St. Louis (which is pretty much the most random thing EVER)...so i'm SUPER excited for that.