ah, the new year....
It's always a wierd thing to look back at the year. I can't imagine what it will be like when I'm a senior. The year was a good one, as usual. A few heated discussions- but nothing that wasn't eventually patched up. I grew so much and learned a great deal about God and what He has for me. I matured in my music as well as just being me.
I've learned that not everyone is going to live like you. Convictions are a personal thing and I shouldn't try to force them on anybody- no matter how much I want to.
I had my first real heartbreak this year, from an almost (thank goodness it wasn't) relationship. I'm glad my Father pulled me out of that one, He only knows what could've happened. I was such a young Christian and really didn't think much of it- and it lead me to a great revelation. To my commitment to God- that the best thing for me is to not date. I've been telling myself that I have made this commitment but if I really put it down it would feel real. The fact that I want a God based relationship with my husband (if I get married one day) and I want my first kiss to be on my wedding day is a huge thing to me. I can only pray that my future (if I have one) husband wants the same.
I'm not really into the whole resolution thing. They always seem so fake and unreal- not personal, and I don't like unpersonal things. I think this commitment might be something like that though, but it's acutally something that could happen any time of the year, it just happens to fall around now for me. I think I really need to work on not pushing the people around me into my thing- I mean it's not like I won't share it with others but I know I shouldn't judge other people when they don't have the same commitment as me. That's their thing and it's between them and God, not between three of us.
Well, there is a little looking back and a little looking forward and it feels pretty good. I'm feel quite peaceful right now and it's nice.
I've learned that not everyone is going to live like you. Convictions are a personal thing and I shouldn't try to force them on anybody- no matter how much I want to.
I had my first real heartbreak this year, from an almost (thank goodness it wasn't) relationship. I'm glad my Father pulled me out of that one, He only knows what could've happened. I was such a young Christian and really didn't think much of it- and it lead me to a great revelation. To my commitment to God- that the best thing for me is to not date. I've been telling myself that I have made this commitment but if I really put it down it would feel real. The fact that I want a God based relationship with my husband (if I get married one day) and I want my first kiss to be on my wedding day is a huge thing to me. I can only pray that my future (if I have one) husband wants the same.
I'm not really into the whole resolution thing. They always seem so fake and unreal- not personal, and I don't like unpersonal things. I think this commitment might be something like that though, but it's acutally something that could happen any time of the year, it just happens to fall around now for me. I think I really need to work on not pushing the people around me into my thing- I mean it's not like I won't share it with others but I know I shouldn't judge other people when they don't have the same commitment as me. That's their thing and it's between them and God, not between three of us.
Well, there is a little looking back and a little looking forward and it feels pretty good. I'm feel quite peaceful right now and it's nice.