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My knees weakened.
Nearly sinking to the floor,
I tried to calm my racing heart.
How could any one person make me feel that vulnerable?
That unsteady?
No one has ever effected me that way.
No one.
Not even the Hardys shook me up that bad when I met them.
So how is it that this one person
could make me shake uncontorllably?
Barely controling my speedy heart and my shaking legs, I walked away, laughing as I went.
Not looking back,
keeping my promise to myself that I would not look like a fool this time around.
I walked away,
hoping to never feel that was about him again.
Refusing to reduce myself to a puddle of lust.
Refusing to be used or humiliated.
I walked away,
hoping not to regret it.
last night I went with Laura to a bon fire at some guys house.
on the way there we rocked out to fucking 80's music.
It was amazing.
when we got there, we saw that we didnt know anyone there.
So we pretty much sat and watched everyone get drunk and high and laughed at them.
When we were going to leave one of the guys that was there was standing in the middle of the road
dancing to our loud 80's music!
and he wouldnt get out of the road
so we sat there for a while
just laughing at him.
it was great
I got home and ate then went to sleep.
RAWR.
it was a pretty weird night.
Also, I realized yesterday just how bad I wanna fuck him.
He just looked so good!!
(and there is a reason I'm saying he and not his name)