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i think sometimes i wander so far off track with stupid shit going on in my life that i can't remember what i'm looking for. it's like i wake up in the morning and there's this feeling of loss, and waking up is a slow, torturous process ripping away all the beautiful things i've seen in my dreams. i'll have a vague memory, a split-second of clarity, and i am aware of the fact that there is definately something i am looking for but i can't quite remember what. all today i had this awful feeling and i couldn't figure out why. nothing out of the ordinary as far as i could tell. i get nervous when this happens though because in the past it's almost like a last waring before something goes wrong in my life or in someone's who is close to me. maybe this is my cue to pay close attention to my intuition...