Quiet
It's quiet around here now...
Unlike my head.
So noisy, so confusing.
I have so many mixed emotions...
My therapist told me that I will have the hardest time out of everyone.
Because I have so many mixed emotions about him, about his passing..
Remember when I said I wouldn't cry?
I did lol. But it's only when I'm alone.
I just have this rush of emotions and I start to bawl my eyes out.
Last night was one of those nights, I just kept saying sorry and wrote all over my hand how sorry I was.
I still wake up thinking I have to let his hospice workers in, to make him tea, to check on him...
When I got back from Easter at my grandma's house, mom and I both expected him to be there...Silly isn't it?
Don't get me wrong...I am glad he isn't suffering anymore. But I do realize that I do miss him in a way.
And yet I don't. Mean I know...
As I said so many mixed emotions.
I just thought I'd update a little... :/
Unlike my head.
So noisy, so confusing.
I have so many mixed emotions...
My therapist told me that I will have the hardest time out of everyone.
Because I have so many mixed emotions about him, about his passing..
Remember when I said I wouldn't cry?
I did lol. But it's only when I'm alone.
I just have this rush of emotions and I start to bawl my eyes out.
Last night was one of those nights, I just kept saying sorry and wrote all over my hand how sorry I was.
I still wake up thinking I have to let his hospice workers in, to make him tea, to check on him...
When I got back from Easter at my grandma's house, mom and I both expected him to be there...Silly isn't it?
Don't get me wrong...I am glad he isn't suffering anymore. But I do realize that I do miss him in a way.
And yet I don't. Mean I know...
As I said so many mixed emotions.
I just thought I'd update a little... :/