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It's hard to start writing again.
Thoughts used to transpire from my mind to screen through the fluent tapping of my fingertips on the laptop keyboard. Now I pause to scan the keyboard for the next word to type. I frequently stop my finger at the backspace key to erase the thoughts which do not seem to translate correctly on the screen. Pardon the pun, but I do feel spaced out staring at my reflection in the screen.
Perhaps it is apt to say there is such a turbulence of thoughts battling in my mind, I never really know if the words which eventually emerge are true depictions or a mere shield to divert the true essence of my thoughts. Be it for fear of mockery and despise or to evade the fall of my pride, I often succumb to doning a super thick protective cloak when confronted. It is my own selfish way of learning to love myself more and others less over the years. It derives from rising self expectations and expecting nothing from others.
Looking back at my entries, there seem to be a fair bit of jovial entries amongst the random rants so I guess it had been overall a good last 7 years away from home! I am a month shy of a 2 years stay in the UAE having arrived here in mid-November 2007. It is all coming to an end soon and it is about time to start blogging retrospectively! The memorable(some not so memorable!) chapters on diving, driving, drinking, having my own pad in Dubai, the arabic classes, a very sad birthday last year, a very happy birthday this year and so my little life story goes.
It's hard to start writing again, but it's good to be back finally.
Thoughts used to transpire from my mind to screen through the fluent tapping of my fingertips on the laptop keyboard. Now I pause to scan the keyboard for the next word to type. I frequently stop my finger at the backspace key to erase the thoughts which do not seem to translate correctly on the screen. Pardon the pun, but I do feel spaced out staring at my reflection in the screen.
Perhaps it is apt to say there is such a turbulence of thoughts battling in my mind, I never really know if the words which eventually emerge are true depictions or a mere shield to divert the true essence of my thoughts. Be it for fear of mockery and despise or to evade the fall of my pride, I often succumb to doning a super thick protective cloak when confronted. It is my own selfish way of learning to love myself more and others less over the years. It derives from rising self expectations and expecting nothing from others.
Looking back at my entries, there seem to be a fair bit of jovial entries amongst the random rants so I guess it had been overall a good last 7 years away from home! I am a month shy of a 2 years stay in the UAE having arrived here in mid-November 2007. It is all coming to an end soon and it is about time to start blogging retrospectively! The memorable(some not so memorable!) chapters on diving, driving, drinking, having my own pad in Dubai, the arabic classes, a very sad birthday last year, a very happy birthday this year and so my little life story goes.
It's hard to start writing again, but it's good to be back finally.