wish i was to dead to cry
Okay im going to update this thing from whenever.
hopefully it wont be too long. im prolly just wasteing my time but im bored.okay.
i had went to therapy not to long ago and she made me tell her about my anger issues.they arent that great. So i told her how i get pissed off really fuckin easy adn what not and she made me set a goal.the goal what this 'take control of your anger towards other and set yourself back' in other words not get mad at anyone. well that lasted what a day? Beucase this kid Nick George(the biggest bastard i have ever met in my life) decides to start harassing me during math class. so i get sick of it and turn around and go cut the shit..so then he continues and i turn around once and again and yell cut the fucking shit..and i look at mr swiss and he tells ME to leave..and i sat there and i go no he was harassing me so i yelled at him im not leaving..so then he tells me get out and so knowing me i get really fuckin pissed that i get up say bullshit under my breath and slam the door so hard that i thought it was oging to fall otu. adn swiss had the nerve to walk out the door adn go lets make that one day after shcool on top and i said fuck you under my breath..then i get to the waiting room adn teh douche bag i am got really really really really pissed off that i started crying..never in school have i cried beucase i was pissed..so i get up adn go to the office adn the lady in the office thank god noes who i am and let me call my dad in so i could talk to him adn tell him..thank god he wasnt mad at me at all..thats not the whole story there were iddy biddy thingers in between but you get the jist.
tongiht i went to ambers concert with josh krysti and brandon..it was fun we made amber laugh..again.. it was funny.
this is the 34938 time i have said this but im not going to like next year one fuckin bit..my best friends are leaving..and its sad..i wont have no one i can trust as much as i do them..i wont hear amber yell 'GABBY!' down the hall no more and i wont see ashley throw her arm in the air yelin 'HOORIGHT!' anymore.i wont see michelle ne more yellin GABITHA! or THE GABINATOR. i donno what im going to do without them. both ashley and michelle plan on going to FL for college (i donno bout amber) and i wont see them no more..Amber will be off being Amber and ill be in school.. Those two years that amber waits for me better go by really fuckin fast beucase if going to england with her really does happen..i am looking forward to it 350%. but i feel bad by having her wait till i graduate(if i even do)
So im being forced now to go to this damn chorus concert wednesday.im not looking forward to this at all..i hate it. so i have to go toamrrow around 6 to rehurs and hear pam yell and yell and yell then wednesday its finally over
i have this 30 pt assignement im suposed to do for history but have no fuckin clue how to do it. it bugs me beucase i was doing so fuckin good. im nervous as all fuckin hell for the finals..im scared of staying back beucse im dumb.
~im scared of being alone and having no one there~
im going to stop right there beucase its to depressing to go on
later.
-Gabs-
hopefully it wont be too long. im prolly just wasteing my time but im bored.okay.
i had went to therapy not to long ago and she made me tell her about my anger issues.they arent that great. So i told her how i get pissed off really fuckin easy adn what not and she made me set a goal.the goal what this 'take control of your anger towards other and set yourself back' in other words not get mad at anyone. well that lasted what a day? Beucase this kid Nick George(the biggest bastard i have ever met in my life) decides to start harassing me during math class. so i get sick of it and turn around and go cut the shit..so then he continues and i turn around once and again and yell cut the fucking shit..and i look at mr swiss and he tells ME to leave..and i sat there and i go no he was harassing me so i yelled at him im not leaving..so then he tells me get out and so knowing me i get really fuckin pissed that i get up say bullshit under my breath and slam the door so hard that i thought it was oging to fall otu. adn swiss had the nerve to walk out the door adn go lets make that one day after shcool on top and i said fuck you under my breath..then i get to the waiting room adn teh douche bag i am got really really really really pissed off that i started crying..never in school have i cried beucase i was pissed..so i get up adn go to the office adn the lady in the office thank god noes who i am and let me call my dad in so i could talk to him adn tell him..thank god he wasnt mad at me at all..thats not the whole story there were iddy biddy thingers in between but you get the jist.
tongiht i went to ambers concert with josh krysti and brandon..it was fun we made amber laugh..again.. it was funny.
this is the 34938 time i have said this but im not going to like next year one fuckin bit..my best friends are leaving..and its sad..i wont have no one i can trust as much as i do them..i wont hear amber yell 'GABBY!' down the hall no more and i wont see ashley throw her arm in the air yelin 'HOORIGHT!' anymore.i wont see michelle ne more yellin GABITHA! or THE GABINATOR. i donno what im going to do without them. both ashley and michelle plan on going to FL for college (i donno bout amber) and i wont see them no more..Amber will be off being Amber and ill be in school.. Those two years that amber waits for me better go by really fuckin fast beucase if going to england with her really does happen..i am looking forward to it 350%. but i feel bad by having her wait till i graduate(if i even do)
So im being forced now to go to this damn chorus concert wednesday.im not looking forward to this at all..i hate it. so i have to go toamrrow around 6 to rehurs and hear pam yell and yell and yell then wednesday its finally over
i have this 30 pt assignement im suposed to do for history but have no fuckin clue how to do it. it bugs me beucase i was doing so fuckin good. im nervous as all fuckin hell for the finals..im scared of staying back beucse im dumb.
~im scared of being alone and having no one there~
im going to stop right there beucase its to depressing to go on
later.
-Gabs-