I never cease to be amazed.
This is to be taken in several different directions.
1st. Boys. SELFISH. I can't actually take it, I need to meet someone older, out of this crappy phase but grown up enough to have all their own shit together so I can focus on mine. I mean I don't want to be arrogant or anything of the sort, but damn it I have never seen such a thing. A guy that doesn't want to make a girl happy. Arrogant assholes, think that everyone wants them. Little do they know that wanting someone and them wanting you in return requires effort. At least a little bit. Everyday people go a little bit out of their way to do something for someone else. It is normal, if you only do things when compensation is involved that classifys you as selfish! Hello. It's obvious! I have never met someone this way. I feel the need to give these chances for him to go back to the way he was. But I give up. Over it. One day, old and lonely, and deserving of nothing more.
2nd. It amazes me that at 20 I can have two bad knees. More overwhelming then the physical pain I feel, I feel such frustration!! It messes up my whole life I am too independant for injuries like this! Ughhhh I can barely do anything without help.
3rd. That I have such amazing people in my life that care alot about me and help me out even when it isn't convenient for them. This week people have carried my things, brought me meals, driven me places, listened to me whine, and most of all loved me all the way through it. Thanks to you all so much. It has really shown me those people that truely are my friends.
4th. Even though my life typically has sucky things happening. I am still very very very fortunate. I am for the most part, healthy, happy, and capable. I have a beautiful place to go to school great teachers to learn from, I have friends all around me, and a family even if it is psydo to go home to. My internship is so fulfulling, it really helps me to realize how fortunate I am. My babies live through several heart surgeries, strokes in utero that affect their whole lives, drugie parents that cause them developmental problems, spina bifida, brain defects, tremendous strains on their lives and they keep on keepin on. The rest of us can too.
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the one's who don't. Believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, then let it. Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised it'd be worth it!
I AM AMAMZED UNCEASINGLY.
1st. Boys. SELFISH. I can't actually take it, I need to meet someone older, out of this crappy phase but grown up enough to have all their own shit together so I can focus on mine. I mean I don't want to be arrogant or anything of the sort, but damn it I have never seen such a thing. A guy that doesn't want to make a girl happy. Arrogant assholes, think that everyone wants them. Little do they know that wanting someone and them wanting you in return requires effort. At least a little bit. Everyday people go a little bit out of their way to do something for someone else. It is normal, if you only do things when compensation is involved that classifys you as selfish! Hello. It's obvious! I have never met someone this way. I feel the need to give these chances for him to go back to the way he was. But I give up. Over it. One day, old and lonely, and deserving of nothing more.
2nd. It amazes me that at 20 I can have two bad knees. More overwhelming then the physical pain I feel, I feel such frustration!! It messes up my whole life I am too independant for injuries like this! Ughhhh I can barely do anything without help.
3rd. That I have such amazing people in my life that care alot about me and help me out even when it isn't convenient for them. This week people have carried my things, brought me meals, driven me places, listened to me whine, and most of all loved me all the way through it. Thanks to you all so much. It has really shown me those people that truely are my friends.
4th. Even though my life typically has sucky things happening. I am still very very very fortunate. I am for the most part, healthy, happy, and capable. I have a beautiful place to go to school great teachers to learn from, I have friends all around me, and a family even if it is psydo to go home to. My internship is so fulfulling, it really helps me to realize how fortunate I am. My babies live through several heart surgeries, strokes in utero that affect their whole lives, drugie parents that cause them developmental problems, spina bifida, brain defects, tremendous strains on their lives and they keep on keepin on. The rest of us can too.
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the one's who don't. Believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, then let it. Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised it'd be worth it!
I AM AMAMZED UNCEASINGLY.