Bah Humbug
So, how about an actual written entry (instead of more quiz stuff)...
It's five days before Christmas, four until the our family's Christmas Eve celebration, and I'm not really feeling in a Christmas mood. This whole season just hasn't been the same for me the past couple years. I love Christmas, I love the time spent with family and friends over the holidays, but I guess that past couple years the whole holiday depression thing has been hitting me. I still believe in Christmas from the religious side, but I also think that to truly enjoy it you have to have the spirit in your heart and I seem to be missing that again this year. And my being a Scrooge always messes stuff up for someone else.
I haven't even made my visit to Jennifer Krohn's grave like I do every Christmas; that just never gets any easier. Every year my heart aches for her parents, spending another holiday without their only child. And I don't want to go visit the cemetery and at the same time I desperately want to go because I have to, because I promised I would, and because I won't be able to enjoy the holiday even a little bit if I don't do this one thing for her and her parents. I have to keep showing them that no matter what else has happened in the past 6 years, someone still remembers, I still remember. So when you've finished reading this, don't feel bad for me and my lack of holiday spirit, I'll manage to work up a little bit in the next few days. Instead, take a second and pray for my friend Jennifer, for her parents that they might find a way to enjoy another holiday without their baby. And then thank God for every moment that you get to spend with your family and friends over the holidays.
It's five days before Christmas, four until the our family's Christmas Eve celebration, and I'm not really feeling in a Christmas mood. This whole season just hasn't been the same for me the past couple years. I love Christmas, I love the time spent with family and friends over the holidays, but I guess that past couple years the whole holiday depression thing has been hitting me. I still believe in Christmas from the religious side, but I also think that to truly enjoy it you have to have the spirit in your heart and I seem to be missing that again this year. And my being a Scrooge always messes stuff up for someone else.
I haven't even made my visit to Jennifer Krohn's grave like I do every Christmas; that just never gets any easier. Every year my heart aches for her parents, spending another holiday without their only child. And I don't want to go visit the cemetery and at the same time I desperately want to go because I have to, because I promised I would, and because I won't be able to enjoy the holiday even a little bit if I don't do this one thing for her and her parents. I have to keep showing them that no matter what else has happened in the past 6 years, someone still remembers, I still remember. So when you've finished reading this, don't feel bad for me and my lack of holiday spirit, I'll manage to work up a little bit in the next few days. Instead, take a second and pray for my friend Jennifer, for her parents that they might find a way to enjoy another holiday without their baby. And then thank God for every moment that you get to spend with your family and friends over the holidays.