Totally........yeaaaahhh
Well at Michigan this weekend. Just hangin out right now, it's Sat. night just got back, doin some imaging shit. I'm not tired, well i am but idk don't want to sleep. I totally upset someone that matters a lot to me. I've held back a lot from her. Because well she wasn't ready. Thats what she told me so i figured why tell her eveything?
Well truth is i should have. Cause today i hurt her, i called her asking for someone else, not on purpose, ever i would never ever do that to her. I just out right made a mistake, i called seeing what heather was doing and called amanda and i don't know why. Just clumsy wasn't paying attention.
Fact is i know heather is a friend to me, i've known that for a long time. And i have this other person in my life, someone i never expected, and she is everything. She means a lot to me and i know who i want, it's Amanda, she is who i want, because she is a person who pays attention to me, she cares and i can tell, i can see it in her eyes.
I will remember all of this amanda, and i will call you, i just hope you're ready. Cause you'll hear all of this. I'll be nervous and scared and shy like i always am around u but i will tell you. No matter what you say you will know. I know you're not ready and i know he means more right now but it's ok.
You want the entire truth, well you're going to get it. I have told you the honest truth for as long as we've known each other, but there are things i've kept from you. Because i'm scared to loose any chance of being with you. People tell me to stay away from you and it makes it worse, cause i want to see you that much more. Don't ask me why i just do.
There are times when i forget everything thats wrong, and my entire focus is you. Only you, and how you just want me to hold you, or you look at me as if for me to be by you all the time. That you're actually relying on me for something or for me to be that part of your life who is there and wants to be.
Babe i'm sorry, i made a mistake i don't know what to say or do. No matter what everyone says i'm still just Eric, the person you actually got to know. And that Eric is the one who wants to be with you because you are something that makes it feel as if he has something to feel good about. muah.
Listen i'm going to bed, the buzz is gone, and i need food, gonna kill it. And tommorrrow morning i'm going to make a call. One that hopefully goes well but we will see. In the mean time....
"talk to you lata darling, sweet dreams" (accent)
I'll talk to you people later
E-Lo
.....Oh and to those people who leave ridiculous comments, fuckin suck my ass, white ass cunt rags.
Well truth is i should have. Cause today i hurt her, i called her asking for someone else, not on purpose, ever i would never ever do that to her. I just out right made a mistake, i called seeing what heather was doing and called amanda and i don't know why. Just clumsy wasn't paying attention.
Fact is i know heather is a friend to me, i've known that for a long time. And i have this other person in my life, someone i never expected, and she is everything. She means a lot to me and i know who i want, it's Amanda, she is who i want, because she is a person who pays attention to me, she cares and i can tell, i can see it in her eyes.
I will remember all of this amanda, and i will call you, i just hope you're ready. Cause you'll hear all of this. I'll be nervous and scared and shy like i always am around u but i will tell you. No matter what you say you will know. I know you're not ready and i know he means more right now but it's ok.
You want the entire truth, well you're going to get it. I have told you the honest truth for as long as we've known each other, but there are things i've kept from you. Because i'm scared to loose any chance of being with you. People tell me to stay away from you and it makes it worse, cause i want to see you that much more. Don't ask me why i just do.
There are times when i forget everything thats wrong, and my entire focus is you. Only you, and how you just want me to hold you, or you look at me as if for me to be by you all the time. That you're actually relying on me for something or for me to be that part of your life who is there and wants to be.
Babe i'm sorry, i made a mistake i don't know what to say or do. No matter what everyone says i'm still just Eric, the person you actually got to know. And that Eric is the one who wants to be with you because you are something that makes it feel as if he has something to feel good about. muah.
Listen i'm going to bed, the buzz is gone, and i need food, gonna kill it. And tommorrrow morning i'm going to make a call. One that hopefully goes well but we will see. In the mean time....
"talk to you lata darling, sweet dreams" (accent)
I'll talk to you people later
E-Lo
.....Oh and to those people who leave ridiculous comments, fuckin suck my ass, white ass cunt rags.