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hi, so i haven't talked to jaclyn since wilson park. she hasn't even called me. and she might be going cross california after friday so i don't know wut's going on. I mean, wut's that mean when she "tells" me that she cares and yet doesn't care enough to even call me once in a while when she knows that she has hurt me recently, and now she knows how bad it was. i mean, how else can i interpret this behavior? wut...i just naievely tell myself over and over, "oh, that's just how she is. She doesn't call anyone. So why should I be any different? I have to call her in order to stay friends with her. If she never calls me, it's okay, cuz that's how..." STUPID I AM! geez. *sigh* ugh i hope she doesn't go to chico though for spring break while being this depressed. no telling wut she might do. :( i'm scared for her, scared of wut she might do to herself. she isn't one to do something that's REAL stupid but, who knows with her in this depression. :( this is bad. i wish SO much that i could help her. :'(
newayz, nothin' with holly yet. i've called her once more while working and we talked for like 6 seconds lol i really hope i don't mess this up and we at LEAST go do something, so that it doesn't go wrong just cuz i didn't push hard enough ya know? but it's so hard right now cuz we're moving and my mom wants me home all the time to help and her back is like thrown cuz she had a period that she hasn't had in like a YEAR! so she's all fucked up ugh not going well. :( my books getting better though. and i need to learn more guitar cuz i need something new now. :) ok, well, how are you doin' meg? ya know wut'd be cool? if u called me outta the blue one time. that'd be awesome and would cheer me up if i was upset and would make me explode with excitement if i was already happy. lol k, just a lil hint ;) ;) hehe c ya gooojice,
(that's gorgeous if u couldn't tell)
~D
newayz, nothin' with holly yet. i've called her once more while working and we talked for like 6 seconds lol i really hope i don't mess this up and we at LEAST go do something, so that it doesn't go wrong just cuz i didn't push hard enough ya know? but it's so hard right now cuz we're moving and my mom wants me home all the time to help and her back is like thrown cuz she had a period that she hasn't had in like a YEAR! so she's all fucked up ugh not going well. :( my books getting better though. and i need to learn more guitar cuz i need something new now. :) ok, well, how are you doin' meg? ya know wut'd be cool? if u called me outta the blue one time. that'd be awesome and would cheer me up if i was upset and would make me explode with excitement if i was already happy. lol k, just a lil hint ;) ;) hehe c ya gooojice,
(that's gorgeous if u couldn't tell)
~D