II - Memories [failed lock]

May 14, 2008 21:45

I hate the desert. I'm all alone... I don't even know if I'm going to find anything. I drank half my water supply Yes Melanie... I know my attempts to spite you backfired! I don't know how much longer the food supply is going to last. Its too late to turn back now... I don't even think I could if I wanted to. Its highly possible I may reach my final end out here. And you know what.... I don't think I'd care. That's how badly I'm losing control of this body... I guess I am weak....

I'm all alone out here. Only Melanie... She retreats into her memories often. She especially goes over that last one... again... and again.... I think she's mad she failed, but grateful that I'm not going to betray her. The memory is so horrifying, though... but its one of the strongest due to how new it is. This body hasn't forgotten.

We're running. Faster and faster. We think we've failed. We think we've lost. They... Jared... Jamie... They've lost. They'll be in danger. We're so scared, so angry. They're chasing us, the Seekers. They tell us  to be careful. The danger is ahead. Its behind too, we think. Then we see what they mean. The shaft. The empty elevator shaft. That's when we make our plan. Not a way to survive, but a way to win. We just have to keep going... We want to laugh as we hear them begging us to stop. We imagine them grabbing but missing. And then there's emptiness. We're flailing, searching for something to grab, to hold onto. But its too late for that. Then a thud... we hear it before we feel it. Pain... its everywhere. Not high enough we think. So much pain... make it stop...

I hate this memory. Its so painful... so violent... she threw her life away... how could she?! Why... it hurt so much... and in the end, it was for nothing...

I hate this body.

the end is the beginning, memories, death, melanie

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