All the world is a stage/And everyone has their part/But how was I to know/Which way the story goes?
I know that we all go through slumps sometimes. It seems as though no matter what we do, think, hear, see, etc... Nothing can make us smile or feel light again. Everything weighs down, and eventually we don't even want to bother. Things become reaction, irritating, boring, etc. Sometimes, we get so used to being unhappy, that we can't handle or allow ourselves to just being happy.. so we create problems for ourselves by making tiny things bigger than they really are. Sometimes we even feel guilty for being happy, or just wanting to laugh if one of our friends, or someone else we're around is unhappy. It's not a crime to laugh. It's not frowned upon, or considered rude, appalling, anything.
Some things can't even touch you, yet you let them; you want them to. Because you're never happy unless you're miserable. You always have to have a problem. Something always has to be wrong. Maybe because that's what's comfortable, keeps you busy, maybe you think that just as your luck, or that you deserve to always have to constantly have problems. Well I can tell you right now that something will ALWAYS be wrong in your life. There are always things that go wrong, or unexpected, or not quite the way you planned. There are going to be irritants, back-stepping, and things that make you angry or offended. But there are also really good things, too. Some things are placed in your life simply to make you smile - others are like little treats if you do right to get them. Some people will always be beside you (in life and death) and even if sometimes you wished they would just go away - they're what you have. You have their best intentions, so you shouldn't fault them for trying their best - even if they're a little confused. Sometimes people try to do good things, and.. well, lets just say they don't turn out as planned (I think all I need to say is a little girl, her fish, and a "bigger bowl"). Even though you want to in some cases, you can't fault them. There is something that you love - something that makes you happy. Exercise it. You never know when something that's considered a really big bad might happen, and you'll lose it. Don't sit there in paranoia - take advantage of the time you have, of the opportunities you have, and of the things that make you and the people you love happy. At least then you can keep something of them forever. There are all different things that make us happy, as different people - music, kids, food, dancing, board games, books, your morning run, letters from friends, shopping, art, movies, sleep, sports, knowledge, maybe doing things that you've never done before. Don't let laziness, propriety, or what you think people might think stop you. Hell even if you're twenty-six like Orlando and like to play Barbies :X (I'm only using him because he knows I love him, and don't mean anything by it. I'm starting to like them too *grumble*). Something you should all remember is that even when we reach eighteen and become adults - we never stop learning. Even about life - especially about life. We're going to be making mistakes and slip-ups until the day we die, I promise. Hell, knowing me? I'll probably even get lost on the way to Heaven or Hell. I have a horrible sense of direction. *smiles* But you know what? Time passes by - so pass with it.
Sometimes I feel thirty-five, and sometimes I feel like that four-year-old. My moods swing to fit the age, too. I like colouring, and making bracelets with Lily, and I like to play video games on the computer, and on the playstation with my little 14-year-old brother. I wrestle with my Dad for fun sometimes when he's teasing me, and I still play dirty immature pranks on my sisters or friends. Sometimes I do the crying, sometimes I do the holding. I like going to the opera with my grandmother, and I like going and cussing out stupid players and chanting "fight!" and "Shoot!! SHOOT!!!" at hockey games with Brittany. I like reading the dictionary, and the discovery channel is my favorite TV channel. We all have different moods, themes, likes, dislikes, and we all are irritating, or too serious sometimes. I just don't know why you have to be angry or sad all the time. Even when you laugh, your face cracks, and it turns bitter. So many of you; of us. I know sometimes I do things or say things and you just want to be like, "*rolls eyes* God, Liv. Grow up one day, huh?" or sometimes I'll be too mature (I know. It's rare. But it happens.) and you're just like, "Stop being so serious and have a little fun >:O" and I gather that it's probably really irritating. Especially when you're in a 50-year-old mood, and I'm in a 4-year-old mood. It clashes, it's annoying, and we all get irritated. And it happens with other people, too.
But it's okay to just be stupid sometimes. It's okay to be geeks, and lame, and have horribly embarrassing secrets that you've earned with your best friend. I know it's weird & annoying to be happy all the time, and I know I'm bitchy/whiney/crabby/mopey sometimes, just like the rest of you. Extra on the bitchy, perhaps :X But I like not having any problems, sometimes. At least - not having any major ones. There will always be little tiny ones - but those you just need to learn to kick out of the way, because even if you don't pay them your every last worry and fear... nothing is going to happen because of them. Maybe you feel so run down and tired or sad or something all the time because you never let yourself recuperate after your problems. Do you breathe anymore? Or do you just dwell? It's okay to go laugh and run around in the streets dancing in the dark.
If I were a law-maker, I'd fight to make a law that everyone should go play hopscotch or play loser monopoly, or play a game of basketball, or.. anything. Just get back to yourself and do something that's utterly pointless except for fun.
Go play a game of putt-putt - the worse you are at it, the more fun the game is.
Some things can't even touch you, yet you let them; you want them to. Because you're never happy unless you're miserable. You always have to have a problem. Something always has to be wrong. Maybe because that's what's comfortable, keeps you busy, maybe you think that just as your luck, or that you deserve to always have to constantly have problems. Well I can tell you right now that something will ALWAYS be wrong in your life. There are always things that go wrong, or unexpected, or not quite the way you planned. There are going to be irritants, back-stepping, and things that make you angry or offended. But there are also really good things, too. Some things are placed in your life simply to make you smile - others are like little treats if you do right to get them. Some people will always be beside you (in life and death) and even if sometimes you wished they would just go away - they're what you have. You have their best intentions, so you shouldn't fault them for trying their best - even if they're a little confused. Sometimes people try to do good things, and.. well, lets just say they don't turn out as planned (I think all I need to say is a little girl, her fish, and a "bigger bowl"). Even though you want to in some cases, you can't fault them. There is something that you love - something that makes you happy. Exercise it. You never know when something that's considered a really big bad might happen, and you'll lose it. Don't sit there in paranoia - take advantage of the time you have, of the opportunities you have, and of the things that make you and the people you love happy. At least then you can keep something of them forever. There are all different things that make us happy, as different people - music, kids, food, dancing, board games, books, your morning run, letters from friends, shopping, art, movies, sleep, sports, knowledge, maybe doing things that you've never done before. Don't let laziness, propriety, or what you think people might think stop you. Hell even if you're twenty-six like Orlando and like to play Barbies :X (I'm only using him because he knows I love him, and don't mean anything by it. I'm starting to like them too *grumble*). Something you should all remember is that even when we reach eighteen and become adults - we never stop learning. Even about life - especially about life. We're going to be making mistakes and slip-ups until the day we die, I promise. Hell, knowing me? I'll probably even get lost on the way to Heaven or Hell. I have a horrible sense of direction. *smiles* But you know what? Time passes by - so pass with it.
Sometimes I feel thirty-five, and sometimes I feel like that four-year-old. My moods swing to fit the age, too. I like colouring, and making bracelets with Lily, and I like to play video games on the computer, and on the playstation with my little 14-year-old brother. I wrestle with my Dad for fun sometimes when he's teasing me, and I still play dirty immature pranks on my sisters or friends. Sometimes I do the crying, sometimes I do the holding. I like going to the opera with my grandmother, and I like going and cussing out stupid players and chanting "fight!" and "Shoot!! SHOOT!!!" at hockey games with Brittany. I like reading the dictionary, and the discovery channel is my favorite TV channel. We all have different moods, themes, likes, dislikes, and we all are irritating, or too serious sometimes. I just don't know why you have to be angry or sad all the time. Even when you laugh, your face cracks, and it turns bitter. So many of you; of us. I know sometimes I do things or say things and you just want to be like, "*rolls eyes* God, Liv. Grow up one day, huh?" or sometimes I'll be too mature (I know. It's rare. But it happens.) and you're just like, "Stop being so serious and have a little fun >:O" and I gather that it's probably really irritating. Especially when you're in a 50-year-old mood, and I'm in a 4-year-old mood. It clashes, it's annoying, and we all get irritated. And it happens with other people, too.
But it's okay to just be stupid sometimes. It's okay to be geeks, and lame, and have horribly embarrassing secrets that you've earned with your best friend. I know it's weird & annoying to be happy all the time, and I know I'm bitchy/whiney/crabby/mopey sometimes, just like the rest of you. Extra on the bitchy, perhaps :X But I like not having any problems, sometimes. At least - not having any major ones. There will always be little tiny ones - but those you just need to learn to kick out of the way, because even if you don't pay them your every last worry and fear... nothing is going to happen because of them. Maybe you feel so run down and tired or sad or something all the time because you never let yourself recuperate after your problems. Do you breathe anymore? Or do you just dwell? It's okay to go laugh and run around in the streets dancing in the dark.
If I were a law-maker, I'd fight to make a law that everyone should go play hopscotch or play loser monopoly, or play a game of basketball, or.. anything. Just get back to yourself and do something that's utterly pointless except for fun.
Go play a game of putt-putt - the worse you are at it, the more fun the game is.