I was talking to Angie yesterday. We were discussing happiness. Something along the lines of: " You have to have that inner happiness. The kind that lasts. There's the short kind, where you're laughing at a joke, but still feel shitty. And there's the happiness that you feel all over, that can let you look into the future and see things clearly and brightly."
"People used to say to me 'You seem happy,' whenever I would laugh or have a good day. My response was usually 'Right now, sure. In general though, I still want to die.' "
And that's the difference between being sad and being depressed. Depression colors your whole life, not just a few days. In sadness, you know that things will pick up again, that you're responding to an event, or even a series of events. Once that has been processed, happiness will return. Depression is a response to life. It is long lasting, and it colors everything. There is no uptick - it is as bad as it will ever be and it will always be that way.
That you feel so lifted after considering your faith and deciding to accept grace aught to indicate that it's a pretty good decision. Spiritually and emotionally.
"People used to say to me 'You seem happy,' whenever I would laugh or have a good day. My response was usually 'Right now, sure. In general though, I still want to die.' "
And that's the difference between being sad and being depressed. Depression colors your whole life, not just a few days. In sadness, you know that things will pick up again, that you're responding to an event, or even a series of events. Once that has been processed, happiness will return. Depression is a response to life. It is long lasting, and it colors everything. There is no uptick - it is as bad as it will ever be and it will always be that way.
That you feel so lifted after considering your faith and deciding to accept grace aught to indicate that it's a pretty good decision. Spiritually and emotionally.
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