sigh
Love. I've only realized that I had it now that I have no one. I loved Ben. I think I did love Eric too, but he's not far enough removed for my hindsight to be 20/20. I know I loved Ben because even now, over a year after we broke up, I miss him. He wasn't The One. I'll know. I didn't feel it at the time because he never loved me back. But now I know what my side is supposed to feel like. Not sure why it took me until now to realize it.