So
So.... livejournal might turn into my new blog. i dunno. but im going to introduce myself
ok hi
i dont really have a life. hey im only a teenager so its no big deal... everybody needs to be obsessed with some stupid thing, a vacation. I have multiple "vacations"... wait now I sound like so drug person :(
my not-having-a-life things i'm crazy about: a ton of celebrity guys (sisky! pete wentz! alex james! steven tyler before he got old! william beckett! i love 'em all). The best band ever is Radiohead, don't deny it, you know you love them. But they are something I call "brain music"... it's hard to explain. I consider a lot of music that requires thinking "brain music"... but it's more than it requires thinking. It's hard to explain.
Words are my enemy. I can never capture my exact thoughts with words. I can come very close with poetry, but i never convey an exact message. Okay, I have with a few poems.
Speaking of writing, I am developing a story right now. The thing is, when designing it, a lot of it was based off of some feelings I had that I decided to cut off a few days ago. It's not worth it. So I'm not sure if I want to uproot my character designs for that. I'm pretty confused.
Currently, my siblings are watching TV because they are kind of white trash. Touch the remote, scratch their video game disc-- or they scratch it and blame you-- and you're dead.
But I'm different. I write. I draw. And I used to be good at drawing but I stopped for a while so I'm regaining my skills and exploring some art styles. I take stuff from the world that inspires me and I interpret it in a weird way and then I spit it out and then I add a maraschino cherry. But they just watch tv. Okay, so my older sister is an "artist", but all she draws is anime, usually other people's characters. And sure, she writes, but only fanfiction. It's pathetic. And she only started when she was ten, and Yu-Gi-Oh! really got her into anime. She starts drawing this Seto Kaiba crap. And her style has remained the same. It's been years since she got into anime. And did I mention she was fat? I'm kinda mean, but really. She needs to loose weight. Seriously. It's messed up. I'm not skinny, but I'm pretty healthy. And she also tries to act like an anime character... its like she just walked out of Café Mew Mew (yes, I sadly know what that is. Its sucks living with this idiot). She'll lean in when she talks to you, she died her hair purple. She also thinks it's cute to say "durp-de-durp-durp-durrrp" (not from anime, but still), while she squints her eyes, and shakes her entire body above her waist from side to side and put her hands in fists up to her mouth. It's really disgusting. She also claims to be a "nerdfighter". And she's really not. From what I understand, Nerdfighters are a Youtube thing, and she never goes on youtube. She's always reading fanfiction on the computer. Not that there's a problem with fanfiction... it just has to be CELEBRITY fanfic. Preferable Gabilliam. That is some good sh**.
Me? I know it's cliché, but I've always been happiest with a pen in my hand. In preschool, teachers would force me to play outside, because I just loved slamming and sliding those dried-out crayola markers on the crisp white paper.
Also, my brain is screwed up. Sometimes, when people talk, the words don't register and I have to ask them to repeat themselves about eight times until I give up and say "yeah". And sometimes I just sit and try to do homework and nothng happens. And sometimes I really want to just have normal conversations with people, but somehow everything seems so funny. Somebody will say "I have science next" and somehow it is just the funniest thing in the world at that moment and I start laughing. I've learned to repress this but it doesn't always work. Also, I hate following big group conversations. They just confuse me. I wish I was smart. I wish the world would make sense.
But it doesn't.
Anyways, what am I doing right now? Typing this up while my little bro watches George Lopez, my sis is on her laptop (I can hear j-pop music playing). I am listening to some crappy music (at least I've got headphones in!). I hate to admit it, but I love Cute Is What We Aim For. Possibly one of the least artistic bands in existence. But all of their songs are so catchy
I'm trying to "musically educate" myself. I want to listen to more Led Zeppelin and Pink Floyd, that type of stuff. But I keep slipping into stuff with more listenability but lack of artsiness. I mean, honestly, I should be listening to Death Cab For Cutie but I've got Cute Is What We Aim For blasting in my earphones (skullcandies, love 'em). Wrong Cute. Okay, after Fourth Drink Instinct, I swear I'll put the right Cute on.
my thoughts as I listen to "Fourth Drink Instinct": This is such a good song... but it's not... aaaah! holy crap is this cheap pop-punk song making me depressed and sypathetic for a character is a song? And I want to sing along but my sibs would stare)... she thought she could burn happiness by the bottle.... yep singing along in my head. oh it's not "burn" it's "find". that makes more sense. I love Shaant's voice as he says "daaa-aa-aarrk". He said it was a one night stand, a one night stand. Okay I like this song way too much. Now it's over. Death Cab time.
my thoughts as I listen to title & registration: what a beautiful intro, First DCFC song I heard. And the voice is beautiful. I barely know these guys, I need to know then better. So many artists I need to listen to more... Smashing Pumpkins, Forgive Durden, David Bowie... okay stop just listen to the song. This is beautiful. Best word for this song. I just type it over and over again. Beautiful. Beautiful. Beautiful. Beautiful. Beautiful. Ugh stupid Gmail won't load. Okay stiop typing and experience the Death Cab. Okay that's creepy. "Experience the death cab". Shut up. Listen. Ugh. Can't stop my fingers from dancing across the keyboard. Stop it! Stop! Yay I stopped on the last line, so I fully absorbed the entire outro! I wish I could be a better music-listener.
I want to stop typing this post, yet at the same time I don't. I think I'll stop because I'm sick and need sleep, and LiveJournal has way too many setting things you have to press before posting. Well you don't have to but I feel more content filling then out.
ok hi
i dont really have a life. hey im only a teenager so its no big deal... everybody needs to be obsessed with some stupid thing, a vacation. I have multiple "vacations"... wait now I sound like so drug person :(
my not-having-a-life things i'm crazy about: a ton of celebrity guys (sisky! pete wentz! alex james! steven tyler before he got old! william beckett! i love 'em all). The best band ever is Radiohead, don't deny it, you know you love them. But they are something I call "brain music"... it's hard to explain. I consider a lot of music that requires thinking "brain music"... but it's more than it requires thinking. It's hard to explain.
Words are my enemy. I can never capture my exact thoughts with words. I can come very close with poetry, but i never convey an exact message. Okay, I have with a few poems.
Speaking of writing, I am developing a story right now. The thing is, when designing it, a lot of it was based off of some feelings I had that I decided to cut off a few days ago. It's not worth it. So I'm not sure if I want to uproot my character designs for that. I'm pretty confused.
Currently, my siblings are watching TV because they are kind of white trash. Touch the remote, scratch their video game disc-- or they scratch it and blame you-- and you're dead.
But I'm different. I write. I draw. And I used to be good at drawing but I stopped for a while so I'm regaining my skills and exploring some art styles. I take stuff from the world that inspires me and I interpret it in a weird way and then I spit it out and then I add a maraschino cherry. But they just watch tv. Okay, so my older sister is an "artist", but all she draws is anime, usually other people's characters. And sure, she writes, but only fanfiction. It's pathetic. And she only started when she was ten, and Yu-Gi-Oh! really got her into anime. She starts drawing this Seto Kaiba crap. And her style has remained the same. It's been years since she got into anime. And did I mention she was fat? I'm kinda mean, but really. She needs to loose weight. Seriously. It's messed up. I'm not skinny, but I'm pretty healthy. And she also tries to act like an anime character... its like she just walked out of Café Mew Mew (yes, I sadly know what that is. Its sucks living with this idiot). She'll lean in when she talks to you, she died her hair purple. She also thinks it's cute to say "durp-de-durp-durp-durrrp" (not from anime, but still), while she squints her eyes, and shakes her entire body above her waist from side to side and put her hands in fists up to her mouth. It's really disgusting. She also claims to be a "nerdfighter". And she's really not. From what I understand, Nerdfighters are a Youtube thing, and she never goes on youtube. She's always reading fanfiction on the computer. Not that there's a problem with fanfiction... it just has to be CELEBRITY fanfic. Preferable Gabilliam. That is some good sh**.
Me? I know it's cliché, but I've always been happiest with a pen in my hand. In preschool, teachers would force me to play outside, because I just loved slamming and sliding those dried-out crayola markers on the crisp white paper.
Also, my brain is screwed up. Sometimes, when people talk, the words don't register and I have to ask them to repeat themselves about eight times until I give up and say "yeah". And sometimes I just sit and try to do homework and nothng happens. And sometimes I really want to just have normal conversations with people, but somehow everything seems so funny. Somebody will say "I have science next" and somehow it is just the funniest thing in the world at that moment and I start laughing. I've learned to repress this but it doesn't always work. Also, I hate following big group conversations. They just confuse me. I wish I was smart. I wish the world would make sense.
But it doesn't.
Anyways, what am I doing right now? Typing this up while my little bro watches George Lopez, my sis is on her laptop (I can hear j-pop music playing). I am listening to some crappy music (at least I've got headphones in!). I hate to admit it, but I love Cute Is What We Aim For. Possibly one of the least artistic bands in existence. But all of their songs are so catchy
I'm trying to "musically educate" myself. I want to listen to more Led Zeppelin and Pink Floyd, that type of stuff. But I keep slipping into stuff with more listenability but lack of artsiness. I mean, honestly, I should be listening to Death Cab For Cutie but I've got Cute Is What We Aim For blasting in my earphones (skullcandies, love 'em). Wrong Cute. Okay, after Fourth Drink Instinct, I swear I'll put the right Cute on.
my thoughts as I listen to "Fourth Drink Instinct": This is such a good song... but it's not... aaaah! holy crap is this cheap pop-punk song making me depressed and sypathetic for a character is a song? And I want to sing along but my sibs would stare)... she thought she could burn happiness by the bottle.... yep singing along in my head. oh it's not "burn" it's "find". that makes more sense. I love Shaant's voice as he says "daaa-aa-aarrk". He said it was a one night stand, a one night stand. Okay I like this song way too much. Now it's over. Death Cab time.
my thoughts as I listen to title & registration: what a beautiful intro, First DCFC song I heard. And the voice is beautiful. I barely know these guys, I need to know then better. So many artists I need to listen to more... Smashing Pumpkins, Forgive Durden, David Bowie... okay stop just listen to the song. This is beautiful. Best word for this song. I just type it over and over again. Beautiful. Beautiful. Beautiful. Beautiful. Beautiful. Ugh stupid Gmail won't load. Okay stiop typing and experience the Death Cab. Okay that's creepy. "Experience the death cab". Shut up. Listen. Ugh. Can't stop my fingers from dancing across the keyboard. Stop it! Stop! Yay I stopped on the last line, so I fully absorbed the entire outro! I wish I could be a better music-listener.
I want to stop typing this post, yet at the same time I don't. I think I'll stop because I'm sick and need sleep, and LiveJournal has way too many setting things you have to press before posting. Well you don't have to but I feel more content filling then out.