Still strugglin'

[livelearning]

It seems I get a little roll on sometimes and do good for about five days or a week, but then I cut myself a little slack and it's all down the drain. I mean, in my defense, I did get sick, but whatever man. There are so many things I want to do, and probably have the energy to do, but I just let the moment pass, lost in the debate of which decision is the more right thing to do. In those cases I just take the middle. I sit there and don't do shyt because I can't decide. I just sit and rot and get-up and sit-down again. Basically, I waste my time until the moment's passed and the only thing left to do is move on....... Yup. Boring ass tactic: neither pragmatic nor ideal. And if it's neither of those, then what the fuck is the point.
Anyways, I just gotta get on top of my shyt. I need to create some momentum for myself. Get the ball movin'. Push it around for a good while before I let my legs rest. It's the only way. If not, it'll slow and roll back on the first root in its path.

Fuck it man. I just gotta be a man about it.

Get my shyt done.