ooga booga! it's all about me isn't it
Actually, I love the Sam & Max comics, they're just so funny and adorable in a scary way. I really do like them, but I've been finding that I like way too much lately. Everytime I see something and immediately think 'I like it!', it goes through this other internal editing process of "jonelle, you know that's very uncool and it will be frowned upon because it's actually pretty shameful". I've been embarrased by a lot of my tastes for so long, and I think I've finally figured out why! Like today, I caught the new Emma Bunton video, all fab and 60s glam and I thought, 'that's cool, I like it'. But then I thought is that really what I like? Or is it just something a little different that I've picked out of a stream of videos that I definately don't like? I know if I made a video, it wouldn't look like that. And it's good that there are popular videos that are leaning towards what I'd like and distinguishing themselves from the rest, but really they're not what I'd produce. They're really not meant for me anyways, and I'll just have to accept that. I'm trying to fit in, but it's really not going well. I can't keep saying 'that's great'! when I really think it's tolerable just to be a non-cynical cheery person that people like. I'm really not a snob, and I don't begrudge anyone liking stuff I'd change. I think that's my rub, I never want to be an indie snob, but I just tend to like more subversive things better. I really admire creativity and my brain needs to be challenged by things that push the envelope of good taste. So it's not that I hate it because it's mainstream, everything gets a fair chance, but I'll probably like something else better because the tamer version just doesn't compare. There, that wasn't so painful... to write. This is very therapeutic, I think I'll keep filling my pages with crap until I get dropped off everyone's friend list.
Yeehaw!
Yeehaw!