current state
ok yall, me 1st journal entry, havent written (by hand) in a journal in years. im just gonna say what I feel right this very minute. I'am currently in a situation that is very complicating to my life right now. I changed high schools without my mom knowing I did. My dad took me out and put me into my old school. I was able to lie to her for about 2 months,and she finally found out a few days ago. I can only hope that this can work out for the better because I do not want to go back to my previous school. I made the change for a reason. My dad was surprised that I could lie for so long and never falter, never allowing myself to crack under the pressure. People have always underestimated me, all my life, to this very day. In everything, people look at me and sterotype me as being weak and not able to do anything, much like Toph(Avatar fans know). I was not surprised at myself for having carried a lie for so long, but I worry what future effect it could have on me. I dont and never will like to lie to those I love,but in that situation, i felt it was deemed necessary. I worry that my apparent deftness at lying to others may undermine my trust factor. That people will not only underestimate me but also not see me as a trustworthy person. I like and I'm known to be an very good friend to all kinds of people. I may lose the people that care about me and those to come. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm........... wat am I to do with myself......