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I can't believe I've stooped so low. Last year, in school I was invincible, I was popular and no one got in my way, but it wasn't really me. This year, I've expressed who I truly am through my sense of clothes and music, and my emotion of the day, and I'm completely the target of hate from the higher social groups...the type of groups that I was in last year. I mean, this year, I've been called freak, bitch, punk ass bitch, etc. etc. or I've gotten that cold look that has sheer hate written all over it. Even some of my "friends" think I'm annoying. I don't know...I don't know why in the blue hell I care what people think of me...
Things with some of my true friends haven't been going too smooth either...Rachel and I are...so different lately, it's as if we don't have anything in common anymore...either that or we just don't want to talk about the things that we actually do have in common. Darrel and I haven't talked in months...why? I dunno. Samantha...well, her and I are growing distant in interests as well. I dunno, but some of my really good friends and I still get along just fine...
Lately, at night or hell, even during the day...I feel like locking myself in my room, music blaring, and just crying 'til I puke and can't talk. But I keep myself from doing so, crying only weakens someone. -.-