NEW BEGGININGS...
wow... it seems like that's something I hear oh too often anymore... "NEW BEGGININGS"... It's a AA meeting I attend, It's new chances for the new years, it's bad things happened... so here's your second chance... I don't know, It just seems to be something branded on my life at this current place in time.
As well, I would like to start with a second beggining to my livejournal. I had really strayed from my everyday updating and I plan on updating everyday once again... It was like my livejournal at one time was almost famous or somethin... everyone knew about it... it caused drama, it caused envy, it caused pain, and well just got out of control. At that time, I took a step back and decided to keep my life a little more private away from the bastards that read it and used it against me.
So what... this is my journal, and I need somewhere to write what I feel. This is for me. If anyone chooses to read it, that's great... if not, that's also great.
I will not catch up on what has happened over the last few months... there is oh so much to tell, and my life got out of control... through time, in my future journal entries, you will find out all that is going on... until then, just keep wondering.
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Today was a pretty good day, except now that I'm at home, alone... in this dark house, I find myself crying within.... and just so alone. I have never felt so alone. And noone other than those I can not be with can understand it... NOONE.
I got up this morning to go to my "NOONERS" AA meeting, but I got lost and I was already late, so I decided to return home. I felt like a faliure... I'm trying to help myself, but I can't even find the damn building.
So then, I came home and chilled for a while and then went to meet up with Pauline. We decided to go paint her dog LOLA a doggy dish "at the CLAYGROUND"... it was pretty fun... just chill... we talked and what not. Then we headed on over to our all to usual hangout at Barnes and just read magazines in the kids section... lol.
Then we were both really tired, so we decided to go home and try to meet up again later.
So who knows what will happen... If I don't hang out with her later, I will probably end up at the 8:00 meeting.
I start the training for my new job tomorrow at 9.
As well, I would like to start with a second beggining to my livejournal. I had really strayed from my everyday updating and I plan on updating everyday once again... It was like my livejournal at one time was almost famous or somethin... everyone knew about it... it caused drama, it caused envy, it caused pain, and well just got out of control. At that time, I took a step back and decided to keep my life a little more private away from the bastards that read it and used it against me.
So what... this is my journal, and I need somewhere to write what I feel. This is for me. If anyone chooses to read it, that's great... if not, that's also great.
I will not catch up on what has happened over the last few months... there is oh so much to tell, and my life got out of control... through time, in my future journal entries, you will find out all that is going on... until then, just keep wondering.
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Today was a pretty good day, except now that I'm at home, alone... in this dark house, I find myself crying within.... and just so alone. I have never felt so alone. And noone other than those I can not be with can understand it... NOONE.
I got up this morning to go to my "NOONERS" AA meeting, but I got lost and I was already late, so I decided to return home. I felt like a faliure... I'm trying to help myself, but I can't even find the damn building.
So then, I came home and chilled for a while and then went to meet up with Pauline. We decided to go paint her dog LOLA a doggy dish "at the CLAYGROUND"... it was pretty fun... just chill... we talked and what not. Then we headed on over to our all to usual hangout at Barnes and just read magazines in the kids section... lol.
Then we were both really tired, so we decided to go home and try to meet up again later.
So who knows what will happen... If I don't hang out with her later, I will probably end up at the 8:00 meeting.
I start the training for my new job tomorrow at 9.