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[livefstdieyng77]

i dont know what to do about this anymore. i dont know whether to face my fears and get rid of these feelings, or just go on the way i am, afraid of basicly anything to do with being social. i am so confused, why do i have this? why did I get it? ive been reading alot about anxiety and some of the things ive been doing are red flags for being with

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Re: i dunno if this even makes sense

[livefstdieyng77]

no that makes alot of sense, and helps to a point. i have told myself that i shouldnt even make a big deal about these things, because no one even notices, but for some reason some part of my brain doesnt even listen and still reacts. i mean, you're right, who dwells on and remembers little things like someone getting up to go to the bathroom? the whole thing is, i think im more worried of me doing something embarressing, so i just won't do the thing that gives me anxiety at all. and even then, no one even cares. does smoking help you? ive always wondered.
i really dont think i could ever talk to someone about having anxiety, i would probably just turn around and walk right out. id have to talk to a complete stranger and tell them my inner most fears about the world in general. i cry just thinking about it. i couldnt begin to tell someone who didnt know me those kinds of things. if i did decide to go to someone, i wouldnt be able to give these things that bother me their fullest glory anyways, because id just ramble through everything just to get it over with.