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"I am so ready to let go, just move on and be happy. But there is always this little shred of... well maybe he'll want me tomorrow, you know?"
-Hollie Seals
...two weeks ago I would of said, "yes! This is how I feel" But I don't believe that quote applies to me any longer. Which is good, well its great, but I mourn for the loss of a loved one. Because I'm done with it, I wouldn't say i'm over it, but im done with it, I can read that quote and say "no... i dont care... and i dont want him tomorrow...not saying never... but def not tomorrow". And thats progress. I can talk myself through my desires, or my 'pseudo-desires' if you will. But I still feel for him, just not as strongly. My therapist (yes therapist) told me, for some, feeling hate and anger towards someone is better than feeling nothing at all. If you cant love them, then atleast you can feel some kind of passion for them, whether it be hate or anger or jealousy. I chose anger... and lots of it.
Where as I'm not over it, I am over it for now.
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