if you care about me read this
I hope we made the right decision. I'm blessed to have the people I do in my life. However, I feel detached from all of you, except for a few (you probably know who you are <3). Last night was expected, however I am pondering the happenings. I'm ready for what is to come this summer, I'm ready to leave this place and live on the road with the few I am close too. My dear friend described this loneliness to me, and I have never seen it so vibrant, I am with you, side by side in this lonely place. My thoughts and emotions are twisted and jumbled into a horrid knot in my stomach today, and yesterday and this past week..and for weeks to come. I want to work on myself, and others.. to erase the detachement which I feel. Closeness is what I want with the majority of people who read this, but I don't have that. You are all faces I see everyday, but rarely can I pick out just how youre feeling that day, or what your thinking, or how you think of me. I'm this same way, I won't open up unless its killing me inside. I am in turmoil with myself, and I'm not positive how I'm going to fix this.