I'm giving up, on everything, because you messed me up....

[livebyfaith]

I'm soooo tired. Life has been especially tiring to me lately. It's amazing, I couldn't ask for more blessings, cuz I already don't deserve what I have. But, as great as things have been lately... I feel this huge void, especially in my walk with God. I've been trying so hard lately to grow closer to the Lord and just to mature. It's hard. I feel so stuck, like there's something holding me back. I can't figure out what it is and overcome it. It's so emotionally draining. I've been thinking a lot about joining a new small group or something. One that's not around here. I really feel the need to get out and meet new people and really challenge myself. As if moving out on your own isn't a challenge, haha. Seriously, though, if anyone has any suggestions I would greatly greatly appreciate it. I just feel so weak lately, I need support, like someone to take me by the hand and say this is the way, let me help you (not literally, but you get the point). I'm not depressed or anything like that... so don't take this the wrong way. I just really feel this internal struggle/battle and it's getting rough.So sorry if I haven't seemed myself to anyone lately. I guess this is all just playing a big part in that. Prayer would be good if you guys don't mind. And don't forget that I'm always here for any of you that need anything at all. I'm just a call away.

On a lighter note... my 21st birthday is one month from today. I'm almost all grown up (tear). Haha yes!!! And a week from Friday, I have my work Christmas party... I'm so excited for that. Next week is my last week of work, then the following week we have meetings.... then I get a week and a half off. I simply can not wait to sleep in every single frickin' day! Ah, it's so great! Ok, well... I've wasted enough of your time. Take care and God bless. I love you all so much!
Kimmy Sue xoxo

"If you're so stuck in your past, you're gonna miss out on what's around you in the present..."