You cant get there from here....
I sat in my room a little while ago... I listened to Aimee singing and then the song changed and it wasnt what I was in the mood for so I changed the track.. I came to Youll think of me.. I cried while I sang it,at the top of my lungs... Then I went into the kitchen, got the box cutter, sat, on my bed, help the box cutter to my skin and hoped that I could push down.. But I couldnt and so I threw it and sobbed and talked to whom eveer would listen.. Told them I didnt want to hurt myself anymore... I didnt want to start again.. And all I wanted were my GODDAMN cigs!!! Ahhhh..
How do you go from being a fucked up Teenager to a actress that people look up to.. It reminds me of a book "You Cant Get There From Here" and all I kept thinking was you cant, you just cant get there from here!!! You have to age and turn and forget and love and except and relize and relive and experience someone loving you back you have to do everything but DIE before you get there... Do I have time..??
It amazes me how stupid people can be.. I relized it tonight talking to Justin.. The whole time I was thinking "what do we talk about" or "what can I say that I wont have to explain"
And then it occured to me "this guy is a freakin idiot"
I hate stupid people I just do!!
I hate myself now!!! Ahh I wanted to go camping so bad until I relized Id be getting a ride from Aimee!! And I just cant do that any more!! I wont bum any more!!
I love you Aimee yall have fun!!
Im ganna go cry now..
Love, Betsy Sue!!
How do you go from being a fucked up Teenager to a actress that people look up to.. It reminds me of a book "You Cant Get There From Here" and all I kept thinking was you cant, you just cant get there from here!!! You have to age and turn and forget and love and except and relize and relive and experience someone loving you back you have to do everything but DIE before you get there... Do I have time..??
It amazes me how stupid people can be.. I relized it tonight talking to Justin.. The whole time I was thinking "what do we talk about" or "what can I say that I wont have to explain"
And then it occured to me "this guy is a freakin idiot"
I hate stupid people I just do!!
I hate myself now!!! Ahh I wanted to go camping so bad until I relized Id be getting a ride from Aimee!! And I just cant do that any more!! I wont bum any more!!
I love you Aimee yall have fun!!
Im ganna go cry now..
Love, Betsy Sue!!