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I'm trying to get into contact with people again. I just kinda hid myself away when I had my baby, which of course is understandable. But now I don't know how to get back into the groove of things. I feel totally like I'm in high school all over again. Shy, timid and don't know what to say. I think I have a problem with talking to people one on one. I'll like, look at them and then look away, avoid eye contact sometimes and my mind will go blank. I'm weird!!! And I'm pretty sure the people I talk to like that think so too, haha. And I think it has something to do with being a twin. Always having someone by my side when I interact with people... Hmmm
I'm trying to get motivated to make a routine so I can get my body back to normal. (And actually get healthy!) It's easier said than done. I'm a total procrastinator. Even when I look in the mirror and hate what I see, I get all pumped up to go to the gym and then Ash'll get hungry and I'll get distracted. Seriously, what will it take for me to GO. Weighing 500 lbs. and pooping on myself with fungus under all my many rolls where I'd find things I've rolled over? Would I even be able to roll over? Sheesh. I need motivaaatttiiioonnnnn. Actually.. That SHOULD be my motivation.
And I keep listening to songs that remind me of Khalil, Andrew, Mat, Sharde, Melissa, and other people I've lost contact with. Takes me back to what happened that day we listened to them. =[ It makes me sad but I love the music... Every song I've listened to has some sort of memory attached to it.
I need a new playlist!
Aw, nostalgia at work.
I'm trying to get motivated to make a routine so I can get my body back to normal. (And actually get healthy!) It's easier said than done. I'm a total procrastinator. Even when I look in the mirror and hate what I see, I get all pumped up to go to the gym and then Ash'll get hungry and I'll get distracted. Seriously, what will it take for me to GO. Weighing 500 lbs. and pooping on myself with fungus under all my many rolls where I'd find things I've rolled over? Would I even be able to roll over? Sheesh. I need motivaaatttiiioonnnnn. Actually.. That SHOULD be my motivation.
And I keep listening to songs that remind me of Khalil, Andrew, Mat, Sharde, Melissa, and other people I've lost contact with. Takes me back to what happened that day we listened to them. =[ It makes me sad but I love the music... Every song I've listened to has some sort of memory attached to it.
I need a new playlist!
Aw, nostalgia at work.