I haven't done this in a couple years.
I don't do this often, but I don't really have anywhere else to vent anymore. And you people always seemed nice enough. So the other day, I got mugged on Wednesday, by three guys. Lost my phone. I wasn't hurt at all. I was shaken though. Shocked when it happened. But not anymore. If it happens again, I won't feel shock. If I see the ones who mugged me again, it won't be shock. Not even close.
It happened on my street, three blocks down. It was a good phone. They know my first name, they know that I live on that street, and that I was coming from the only gym in the area. Should I be afraid. Probably. It happened so close to home. How can I walk down my street again, knowing what happened. How do you walk by that place again, and not feel fear? Easy. You never put yourself back in that position. Take a car, call for a ride, regardless of the distance of the walk. Don't put yourself in danger. Like I said, I don't feel fear. I'm worried that they had the house numbers of my friends, but I deactivated and blocked the phone not long after. Not much they can do with it now. I feel something more than fear.
I feel anger. I feel pissed. Pissed that I have to worry about my friends when they walk home. Pissed at myself that I was frozen in shock. So shocked that I couldn't attempt to take them down. My friends and family said that I couldn't have handled it any better. I was unscathed. I called the cops a short while later. I blocked my phone. But I'm still angry. And I need an outlet. This anger is all consuming. It makes it harder to breathe.
So, I'm here to ask all of you, friends who I haven't spoken to in months... How would you deal with the anger? How could you go back to that spot and not feel your blood boil? How can you sleep when you know some of your friends are probably out, semi-hammered, without any form of protection? Maybe time will heal it, so that I won't be so possessed. But you have to understand... I don't care that I wasn't hurt. But it made me realize that no one is completely safe. And that it could happen to someone I really love.
It happened on my street, three blocks down. It was a good phone. They know my first name, they know that I live on that street, and that I was coming from the only gym in the area. Should I be afraid. Probably. It happened so close to home. How can I walk down my street again, knowing what happened. How do you walk by that place again, and not feel fear? Easy. You never put yourself back in that position. Take a car, call for a ride, regardless of the distance of the walk. Don't put yourself in danger. Like I said, I don't feel fear. I'm worried that they had the house numbers of my friends, but I deactivated and blocked the phone not long after. Not much they can do with it now. I feel something more than fear.
I feel anger. I feel pissed. Pissed that I have to worry about my friends when they walk home. Pissed at myself that I was frozen in shock. So shocked that I couldn't attempt to take them down. My friends and family said that I couldn't have handled it any better. I was unscathed. I called the cops a short while later. I blocked my phone. But I'm still angry. And I need an outlet. This anger is all consuming. It makes it harder to breathe.
So, I'm here to ask all of you, friends who I haven't spoken to in months... How would you deal with the anger? How could you go back to that spot and not feel your blood boil? How can you sleep when you know some of your friends are probably out, semi-hammered, without any form of protection? Maybe time will heal it, so that I won't be so possessed. But you have to understand... I don't care that I wasn't hurt. But it made me realize that no one is completely safe. And that it could happen to someone I really love.