my mind..
okkkkkk sooo here goes nothing..
so 4, almost 5, years ago, my heart was shattered, the way the relationship ended was horrible. I cant even begin to explain just how I felt. but now, 5 years after the fact... he's back in my life, as my friend, with a beautiful little boy. I am so glad that he's back. so much that sometimes i get scared taht im attached just as much as i was back then. I loved him then, I love him now, and even at the present point in my life, He is the ONLY guy I could look at you and say I truely loved. He is the only one who has ever had my heart, honestly, I cant wait to feel that feeling again..
Josh, I loved you then, I love you now, and I will love you forever. No matter what happens in your life, Always know that I am here for you, and I always will be. I truely never want to lose you again. I went through that pain once, and even if you are only my friend, I never want to lose you again. I hate to sound attached to you, But I always have been. You are all that has ever been mine. and believe it or not, I think I love Aiden just as much. If ever you need something, for yourself or for him, I'll be there. you're an amazing person, I wish you would stop putting yourself down. I love you. p.s. I'm sorry for the whole " first time i saw him i was sad cuz i though, this could've been ours" thing..
forever. <3
so 4, almost 5, years ago, my heart was shattered, the way the relationship ended was horrible. I cant even begin to explain just how I felt. but now, 5 years after the fact... he's back in my life, as my friend, with a beautiful little boy. I am so glad that he's back. so much that sometimes i get scared taht im attached just as much as i was back then. I loved him then, I love him now, and even at the present point in my life, He is the ONLY guy I could look at you and say I truely loved. He is the only one who has ever had my heart, honestly, I cant wait to feel that feeling again..
Josh, I loved you then, I love you now, and I will love you forever. No matter what happens in your life, Always know that I am here for you, and I always will be. I truely never want to lose you again. I went through that pain once, and even if you are only my friend, I never want to lose you again. I hate to sound attached to you, But I always have been. You are all that has ever been mine. and believe it or not, I think I love Aiden just as much. If ever you need something, for yourself or for him, I'll be there. you're an amazing person, I wish you would stop putting yourself down. I love you. p.s. I'm sorry for the whole " first time i saw him i was sad cuz i though, this could've been ours" thing..
forever. <3