(no subject)
Please read this:
i dont think ill ever be as happy as i was to see Charlie again. I thought i would be sad if i never saw him again, but i think i prefer it. Now i know what its like to feel so happy, and i know that i will never be this happy again, i dont know what ill do with myself. Ive never been so happy to see someone that i would start to cry and shake. When i saw him and hugged him...i didnt want to let go, i never wanted to be without him. I guess that makes me "crazy" like everyone says but really NO ONE could ever feel this strong about someone. I was about to beat the shit out of Kurtis, who is like 6 foot, just because he said something about Charlie, thats not right. I cant even describe how i feel. Ive cried almost 8 full hours now, and i think im all cried out, i no longer have any tears. And on top of that, i havent had a full nights sleep since i "fell in love".Ive sat in my room for for what feels like 2 days straight now. The really only reason i got up was to turn up my emo music to drown out the screaming. I know this is a cheesy line a LOT of people use but...ive never felt this way about someone, and im 13. its not fair for me to have to feel this, its not normal for me to want to spend the rest of my life just talking to him about the stupidest things or just looking at him. I mean come on! HE NEVER LIKED ME AND BY THE LOOKS OF IT...NEVER WILL! I should have never let him go, now ill be with out him forever. And since im going to the new high school...im almost positive that was the last time ill ever see him again. I just want him to know how i feel and not have to keep thin bottled up like i do with every other guy. But this is different, i LOVE him so fucking much...that i think ill never like anyone else EVER again. I wish someone loved me like i love this kid, if then, i would be complete, hes the only thing i need, ever. But i dont think its possible for anyone to love someone as much as i love this kid. Well i hope if you got this far that you understand how much in love i am with him.
<3
i dont think ill ever be as happy as i was to see Charlie again. I thought i would be sad if i never saw him again, but i think i prefer it. Now i know what its like to feel so happy, and i know that i will never be this happy again, i dont know what ill do with myself. Ive never been so happy to see someone that i would start to cry and shake. When i saw him and hugged him...i didnt want to let go, i never wanted to be without him. I guess that makes me "crazy" like everyone says but really NO ONE could ever feel this strong about someone. I was about to beat the shit out of Kurtis, who is like 6 foot, just because he said something about Charlie, thats not right. I cant even describe how i feel. Ive cried almost 8 full hours now, and i think im all cried out, i no longer have any tears. And on top of that, i havent had a full nights sleep since i "fell in love".Ive sat in my room for for what feels like 2 days straight now. The really only reason i got up was to turn up my emo music to drown out the screaming. I know this is a cheesy line a LOT of people use but...ive never felt this way about someone, and im 13. its not fair for me to have to feel this, its not normal for me to want to spend the rest of my life just talking to him about the stupidest things or just looking at him. I mean come on! HE NEVER LIKED ME AND BY THE LOOKS OF IT...NEVER WILL! I should have never let him go, now ill be with out him forever. And since im going to the new high school...im almost positive that was the last time ill ever see him again. I just want him to know how i feel and not have to keep thin bottled up like i do with every other guy. But this is different, i LOVE him so fucking much...that i think ill never like anyone else EVER again. I wish someone loved me like i love this kid, if then, i would be complete, hes the only thing i need, ever. But i dont think its possible for anyone to love someone as much as i love this kid. Well i hope if you got this far that you understand how much in love i am with him.
<3