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What do you do when it's one thirty in the morning, youre really pissed off, and your best friend is asleep??
WHY CAN NOTHING EVER GO MY WAY? LIKE, EVER? Seriously what the hell is wrong with me? I wish I knew because then maybe I could FIX it and then things wouldn't be so shitty. I don't want this. I don't want to be preoccupied with this and worrying about this and thinking about this 24/7. I want to be free from this grip that its keeping on me. I DONT WANT THIS SO WHY CAN'T I LET IT GO? I want to rid myself of this so badly, especially now, but it still holds on. ANOTHER THING I HATE: I let myself get so worked up. I let myself HOPE, and you know what that sets me up for? Disaster. I remember, now, why I kept myself so closed and shut up in the past; to avoid disaster. I'm tired of pretending that everything is alright. i want to be real. SCREW IT if thats not always happy. I'm tired of helping other people with their issues, i've got my own, thanks.
schools starts in less than a week and i've got two essays to write. great.
this is so stupid. livejournal is stupid. do not read that rant. its just a bunch of bullshit i feel the need to post on the internet for some lame reason.
love
WHY CAN NOTHING EVER GO MY WAY? LIKE, EVER? Seriously what the hell is wrong with me? I wish I knew because then maybe I could FIX it and then things wouldn't be so shitty. I don't want this. I don't want to be preoccupied with this and worrying about this and thinking about this 24/7. I want to be free from this grip that its keeping on me. I DONT WANT THIS SO WHY CAN'T I LET IT GO? I want to rid myself of this so badly, especially now, but it still holds on. ANOTHER THING I HATE: I let myself get so worked up. I let myself HOPE, and you know what that sets me up for? Disaster. I remember, now, why I kept myself so closed and shut up in the past; to avoid disaster. I'm tired of pretending that everything is alright. i want to be real. SCREW IT if thats not always happy. I'm tired of helping other people with their issues, i've got my own, thanks.
schools starts in less than a week and i've got two essays to write. great.
this is so stupid. livejournal is stupid. do not read that rant. its just a bunch of bullshit i feel the need to post on the internet for some lame reason.
love