life...

[live_for_today]

it's been a while...

this semester isn't going well, had some life issues and it's put me off course. i'm dropping my physics class and not sure about chem. i think i might drop that to...need to talk to mom and get yelled at. she knows whats going on so i'm sure she'll understand. luckily i have to stay for all of next year anyway so it doesn't matter i can take those classes later.

i know i'm going to get yelled at about this but i can't help it...

alex came over last night. i was drunk and sent him a text message and we got talking and well it was 3am and he drove to see me. he's still super dedicated and in love with me. i definitly have stronger feelings for him than i ever had for anyone else. i'm just scared. i saw him and melted in his arms. it's so hard for me to see his face, it's the best face in the world and he just looks at me with those eyes...ugh. but we didn't do anything, just cuddle. i told him that i didn't know what was going on but if there is going to be anything we are doing it right. i don't care if we've been on and off for, shit, 2.5 years. we are going to get to know each other again and go on dates, the physical stuff will come later!

ok guys start yelling!!!