Thank you...
for making me feel like shit by saying that you will be going to Megacon with "the chick who should have been your made of honor in the first place." I don't recall being that bad of a best friend. Again, it was you who treated me like garbage the last time I saw you. How fucking dare you hurt me like that? I say it now because I really feel this way but that goes around comes around. I fucking wish you the best in life. Yeah, I am mad and I have every single right to be mad at someone who half assed an apology. It's whatever you know? I'm done. I am absolutely done, especially if you are going to keep on hurting me like you just did in your most recent entry. I threw away every picture, letter and writing that you gave me. The button inside the Hello Kitty has been taken off and thrown away because I can't stand anymore the sound of your voice. I kept the gifts even though if I wanted to I would throw them out too but some are quite good and still has a lot of use into them so I will keep them. I really want to shake you away from me. Take all these years of friendshit between you and me and do just the same that you did to me, throw them away in the fucking trash. You wanted me to talk and you should have known that I will say a lot of things that hurts and that you wouldn't want to hear. What am I supposed to do when now you even regret having me as your maid of honor at your wedding? You were supposed to be my maid of honor remember? That day might come anytime soon since he has already asked me and I said yes. But you may not be there to see it happen and it sucks and hurts. We used to share our happy moments together and now, we are getting hurt by one and the other. This needs to stop. I am tired of being hurt by my "sister." You have changed; oh yes, you have and I am still the same. Hopelessly waiting and always broken. I better go before my tears wakes everyone up in this house because that's what this entry and letter have caused me; for me to break down once again for the one person I am getting tired of crying every now and again for.
I've cried for guys many times because they have hurt me. I never though that a friend would do the same thing guys have done to me; stab me in the heart with a bitter goodbye and a sour betrayal. Just say it because I know by now you will mean it; I mean nothing to you and I have meant nothing to you for quite a while because then I will be at peace knowing that all of this, our friendship and sisterhood has been nothing but a lie. That's how you make me feel and I gladly thank you for that.