you should have seen it in color
im leaving in less than a week. it hasnt set into my mind yet.
im excited to be doing something different and having an adventure, yet at the same time i keep hearing that stupid gay brother in the back of my head repeating his brutally honest opinion about how he thinks that this whole thing is stupid. part of me believes him...but the other part of me wants to punch him in the head and move to florida.
in my path to self discovery last year, i started to define myself by the people i hang out with. luckily, i hang out with an outstanding group of individuals and am able to maintain myself and my dignity while hanging out with them. i would literally feel the immediate need when i met someone to introduce them to my friends so that they would in essence understand who i am and why i do the things i do. i dont think this is a bad thing necessarily, but i dont like that i dont know who i am when im not with people i know.
around my barn girls im emily the horseback rider who could talk about ponies all day every day.
around my nerdball friends im the obnoxious awkward girl who laughs entirely too much.
around my best friend im a lovable bitch who blasts her country music for all to hear.
around my badass friends im the wholesome one who is always DD.
around my church acquaintances im the rebel without a cause.
around my swing posse im a confident dancer who loves to tear it up on the dance floor, at waffle house, or anywhere that there is music.
i love all these different sides to myself, yet i dont know which one stands out the most when i am totally by myself. i act the way i do because of the people im around, so when im not around anyone i know, who am i?
im excited to be doing something different and having an adventure, yet at the same time i keep hearing that stupid gay brother in the back of my head repeating his brutally honest opinion about how he thinks that this whole thing is stupid. part of me believes him...but the other part of me wants to punch him in the head and move to florida.
in my path to self discovery last year, i started to define myself by the people i hang out with. luckily, i hang out with an outstanding group of individuals and am able to maintain myself and my dignity while hanging out with them. i would literally feel the immediate need when i met someone to introduce them to my friends so that they would in essence understand who i am and why i do the things i do. i dont think this is a bad thing necessarily, but i dont like that i dont know who i am when im not with people i know.
around my barn girls im emily the horseback rider who could talk about ponies all day every day.
around my nerdball friends im the obnoxious awkward girl who laughs entirely too much.
around my best friend im a lovable bitch who blasts her country music for all to hear.
around my badass friends im the wholesome one who is always DD.
around my church acquaintances im the rebel without a cause.
around my swing posse im a confident dancer who loves to tear it up on the dance floor, at waffle house, or anywhere that there is music.
i love all these different sides to myself, yet i dont know which one stands out the most when i am totally by myself. i act the way i do because of the people im around, so when im not around anyone i know, who am i?