staring down the barrel
SOOO CONFUSED YET AGAIN i thought i had got rid of all these thoughts and feelings bt they keep coming bk im torn between my heart and my head. i knw im the victim of my own crime bt i cnt help doing it to myself... its jst sooo hard.. to move on.
i was happy i never was sad i was always happy wen i talked to him thought baout him had him... i wud do anything for him i still wud:(
so many memories tht i cnt let go of... he will always have my heart no mantter how much he smashes it.
his words still haunt me.. if only i had moved here a few weeks sooner... i moved here for him bt it was a few weeks to late:(
now im alone wishing i cud hold him and jst be with him and i cnt even speak to him...
what ever happend to teh days where there was no pain and i ddnt slowely fall apart.
it feels like it was another life it was never me jst a dream never to b had again.
the tunnel jst gets darker never lighter it jst keeps on going
i was happy i never was sad i was always happy wen i talked to him thought baout him had him... i wud do anything for him i still wud:(
so many memories tht i cnt let go of... he will always have my heart no mantter how much he smashes it.
his words still haunt me.. if only i had moved here a few weeks sooner... i moved here for him bt it was a few weeks to late:(
now im alone wishing i cud hold him and jst be with him and i cnt even speak to him...
what ever happend to teh days where there was no pain and i ddnt slowely fall apart.
it feels like it was another life it was never me jst a dream never to b had again.
the tunnel jst gets darker never lighter it jst keeps on going