watch it burn
sooooo...this thing..i forgott about it lol.
i dnt knw wats going good in my life atm:( sure i have a job but im bored with it and i dnt want to go and i cnt b fukd anymore its jst not doing it for me at all bt i feel like i have to stay there with them i dnt want to put them out:( im living with my old manager still and the baby has arrived and hes adorable i feel like i shud find a place bt i cnt afford it coz im in sooo much debt and i feel terrible about it, but tax is coming up so atleast i cn give some people some money and then i will feel a lil better.
Broken hearted once again:( i gave him everything i had heart body and soul and he used it and threw it away.It doesnt make sense to throw people away when they care about u and the only reason u dnt want them there anymore is coz ur too stressed and life is hard! life is always hard!!!! and if there is someone willing to stick by u through it all then they are worth holding onto bt he wont c tht :(
i think he likes to leave me in tears and to see me hurting,he alwways realises tht i love him and thts why the circle happens again bt thts all it is its jst a circle its never gping to continue , when i think the circle has been broken its jst the begining again.
In better news... might be starting a band:) it might work coz teh others are great and if we want some more balls the guys can sing bt our voices go well together and for something different wen i get my cello i cn play tht ina few songs so it might work, well atleast it will b fun:)
I have my mates ep launch end of this month which he is soooo excited about lol. Then Will is coming up with his band again soon , i like british india bt i told them they need to write more meaningfull songs and i looked at wills been writting and its lookin pretty good so hopefully their next album will b good:)
I have been here for a year now this is the longest i have ever been in the country adn everything is sooo different i wish some things were still the same bt alas it isnt to b i cnt even tell him tht:(
I hate being a girl and having all these emotions and nt being able to let go..it never stops hurting.
Im gettin my next tatt in a few weeks:) morior dormio forte somnio (to die to sleep perchance to dream) then thts it! i dnt want to b too tattooed. I am thinking about being on my mates ep album cover lol i dnt knw how comfertable i am to b in a bikinie or lingerie on a cover for all to see, but it wud b fun:)
Well time to go and die my hair and clean the house then atleast yiannis cnt b angry at me coz work was really messy this morning bt i tried to clean bt i had to go on reg :(
i dnt knw wats going good in my life atm:( sure i have a job but im bored with it and i dnt want to go and i cnt b fukd anymore its jst not doing it for me at all bt i feel like i have to stay there with them i dnt want to put them out:( im living with my old manager still and the baby has arrived and hes adorable i feel like i shud find a place bt i cnt afford it coz im in sooo much debt and i feel terrible about it, but tax is coming up so atleast i cn give some people some money and then i will feel a lil better.
Broken hearted once again:( i gave him everything i had heart body and soul and he used it and threw it away.It doesnt make sense to throw people away when they care about u and the only reason u dnt want them there anymore is coz ur too stressed and life is hard! life is always hard!!!! and if there is someone willing to stick by u through it all then they are worth holding onto bt he wont c tht :(
i think he likes to leave me in tears and to see me hurting,he alwways realises tht i love him and thts why the circle happens again bt thts all it is its jst a circle its never gping to continue , when i think the circle has been broken its jst the begining again.
In better news... might be starting a band:) it might work coz teh others are great and if we want some more balls the guys can sing bt our voices go well together and for something different wen i get my cello i cn play tht ina few songs so it might work, well atleast it will b fun:)
I have my mates ep launch end of this month which he is soooo excited about lol. Then Will is coming up with his band again soon , i like british india bt i told them they need to write more meaningfull songs and i looked at wills been writting and its lookin pretty good so hopefully their next album will b good:)
I have been here for a year now this is the longest i have ever been in the country adn everything is sooo different i wish some things were still the same bt alas it isnt to b i cnt even tell him tht:(
I hate being a girl and having all these emotions and nt being able to let go..it never stops hurting.
Im gettin my next tatt in a few weeks:) morior dormio forte somnio (to die to sleep perchance to dream) then thts it! i dnt want to b too tattooed. I am thinking about being on my mates ep album cover lol i dnt knw how comfertable i am to b in a bikinie or lingerie on a cover for all to see, but it wud b fun:)
Well time to go and die my hair and clean the house then atleast yiannis cnt b angry at me coz work was really messy this morning bt i tried to clean bt i had to go on reg :(