what is happening
i dont know what to do.
i really really dont know what to do.
except i do.
starve myself.
so here i go. again.
and here is what: anything that i eat other than the bare minimum must be brought back up.
school starts tomorrow. it will be easy. routine.
everyone is going to look at you and see how fat you have got. they will laugh and talk.
i dont want to go back.
ive done no work because im too stressed about being fat but i havent had the self control to do anything about it. how pathetic. you are pathetic. PATHETIC.
today was going so well. amazingly well. and then i fucked it up. now im dripping in fat. i can feel it all over me and its making me cry. i want to get out of my body. i feel trapped.
i have no one to blame but myself. no one forced me to put things in my mouth. that was my choice. this was my choice and this is my consequence and now i have to deal with it.
so this is what i will do: starve. starve until you collapse. that is the only option.
i am getting close to being as fat as i was originally before all of this. shit.
oh my god.
i am out of control and on the road to being HUGE.
i wish i was dead.
i really really dont know what to do.
except i do.
starve myself.
so here i go. again.
and here is what: anything that i eat other than the bare minimum must be brought back up.
school starts tomorrow. it will be easy. routine.
everyone is going to look at you and see how fat you have got. they will laugh and talk.
i dont want to go back.
ive done no work because im too stressed about being fat but i havent had the self control to do anything about it. how pathetic. you are pathetic. PATHETIC.
today was going so well. amazingly well. and then i fucked it up. now im dripping in fat. i can feel it all over me and its making me cry. i want to get out of my body. i feel trapped.
i have no one to blame but myself. no one forced me to put things in my mouth. that was my choice. this was my choice and this is my consequence and now i have to deal with it.
so this is what i will do: starve. starve until you collapse. that is the only option.
i am getting close to being as fat as i was originally before all of this. shit.
oh my god.
i am out of control and on the road to being HUGE.
i wish i was dead.