as if it isn't bad enough.
i figure that they might as well put a gun to my head and save me from all this misery. i feel like i'm dying. my body won't function right and as the days go by something new always happens. and it's nothing good. The doctors are telling me i will never be able to get a license all thanks to my stupid eye. so i'll never be independent. i hate relying on people and now i'll have to rely on them for the rest of my life. my best friend can't really hang out with me much more. i guess i'm a bad influence. there are other things but mostly i suffer from heartache and miss him some days more than others. and i wish i didn't but i can't help it. relationships are a bad idea and anyone who disagrees with me is wasting their time. i'm sick and tired of opening up to people just to get shut down. it's not like they care about me anyways. maybe i'm just on some stupid depressive rant but i hurt all over and i have no one to turn to. i just wish things were different and i didn't have to feel this way. i can't stop thinking about how stupid i am and how much i wish i weren't here.