goodness
i seriously dont know what is going on. my head is a mess. you want me, you dont want me, you want me, wtf is wrong with you seriously. i just need an honest emotion here thankyou. :( i just really wish i knew what to do right now, i know what i need to do but i dont know if im willing to take that risk.
why do i always find myself in situations like that. i could be perfectly happy elsewhere but i have to have what i shouldnt and whats not good for me. its like knowing you shouldnt eat the whole bag of chips while you're watching a movie because you know its not good for you but what the hell you do it anyways. oh god im aweful. i play mom to everyone else but yet again here i am without one. i do so good most of the time thinking about how lucky i am to have my dad but then its like okkayy so im in a terrible relationship situation and my dads automatic response to my heartbreak is 'i'll kill him' i cant talk to him about things and my friends are awesome i mean i dont knwo what i would do without them. but i just wish i had her to talk too :( you know. my hearts broken in so many ways im not sure if i'll ever have a healthy relationship
why do i always find myself in situations like that. i could be perfectly happy elsewhere but i have to have what i shouldnt and whats not good for me. its like knowing you shouldnt eat the whole bag of chips while you're watching a movie because you know its not good for you but what the hell you do it anyways. oh god im aweful. i play mom to everyone else but yet again here i am without one. i do so good most of the time thinking about how lucky i am to have my dad but then its like okkayy so im in a terrible relationship situation and my dads automatic response to my heartbreak is 'i'll kill him' i cant talk to him about things and my friends are awesome i mean i dont knwo what i would do without them. but i just wish i had her to talk too :( you know. my hearts broken in so many ways im not sure if i'll ever have a healthy relationship