Being a Human Being.
This is a sad lonely day today.
I'm still ill. I haven't been to school today, neither I'm going tomorrow. And that for I missed dance practise. My throat hurts so I can't sing. Well I can if I want to, but I sound like car's exhaust pipe. And I wish I'd be kidding.
On days like this I start missing my friends. My friends here, and those friends that I left when I moved out 2 years ago. Yeah, it has been 2.5 years already.
Idek what my feelings are when I remember my life there. I mean - I was happy, with my family, lots of friends, my other relatives that live there. Just it was a small town, so there weren't many places to have fun at. It was all fine, you know. Of course, when I found out we were going to leave I felt heartbroken. My whole life was there.
But the funny thing is that I'm happy that I moved out. Now I am. Why?
Simple - because it's so boring there that my friends became like, alcoholics. They've all changed a lot. I still love them, and they still mean the world to me. It's just sad that they're doing things like that and acting weird.
And I noticed they have no motivations to reach for something in life. They're all acting like they'd be...hopeless.
That's depressing.
Even though it gets lonely here where I now live, I found some good friends that I really can relay on and trust. Just it's not the same when I didn't grow up with them.
But I'm happy to be here, because I know I can built up my feature here, or start doing it. Plus - hello, as being a total fashion obsessed maniac, I can shop till I drop.LOL I can feel the rythm of life here, haha, even though it's still a small city compared to world's gratest ones. But you can't get a big city out of small country, right? Well, maybe just if a city is the whole country.
ANYWAYS, I'm really tired and weird after doing nothing all day, and blabing calms me down. So sorry for that!^^
I'm still ill. I haven't been to school today, neither I'm going tomorrow. And that for I missed dance practise. My throat hurts so I can't sing. Well I can if I want to, but I sound like car's exhaust pipe. And I wish I'd be kidding.
On days like this I start missing my friends. My friends here, and those friends that I left when I moved out 2 years ago. Yeah, it has been 2.5 years already.
Idek what my feelings are when I remember my life there. I mean - I was happy, with my family, lots of friends, my other relatives that live there. Just it was a small town, so there weren't many places to have fun at. It was all fine, you know. Of course, when I found out we were going to leave I felt heartbroken. My whole life was there.
But the funny thing is that I'm happy that I moved out. Now I am. Why?
Simple - because it's so boring there that my friends became like, alcoholics. They've all changed a lot. I still love them, and they still mean the world to me. It's just sad that they're doing things like that and acting weird.
And I noticed they have no motivations to reach for something in life. They're all acting like they'd be...hopeless.
That's depressing.
Even though it gets lonely here where I now live, I found some good friends that I really can relay on and trust. Just it's not the same when I didn't grow up with them.
But I'm happy to be here, because I know I can built up my feature here, or start doing it. Plus - hello, as being a total fashion obsessed maniac, I can shop till I drop.LOL I can feel the rythm of life here, haha, even though it's still a small city compared to world's gratest ones. But you can't get a big city out of small country, right? Well, maybe just if a city is the whole country.
ANYWAYS, I'm really tired and weird after doing nothing all day, and blabing calms me down. So sorry for that!^^