loving you...
I'm soooo sleepy, I don't know why I'm still up. Lo and behold, I got sick the day I came home for spring break! I'm very proud of my body for holding out until after finals, though. For once, my fucked up immune system did something right.
Derrrr. I feel like I have so much to do tomorrow. My grandma flies in at noon... I'm not gonna go pick her up, but they'll probably be pissed if I'm not home to greet her. But you know what? I have my own life, I have shit to do. So if I'm out doing these things when she comes home, oh well. Anyway, they won't be home till I'm guessing 1 at the earliest... so I need to do the following before then:
.5) call and schedule an appt
1) go to Walgreens and buy some things
2) come home and do some things
3) drive to UW to go tanning
4) pick up some clothes from my apartment
5) maybe buy some books?
6) come home, shower
7) hang out with grandma
8) work at 5:30, hooray
I need to do my nails at some point, too. Meh. All I wanna do tomorrow is lay in bed and do nothing... kinda like... today! But I can't do that again. Oh well.
I've been kinda cranky lately 'cause I haven't heard from Vesko in a while. I really hope he's doing okay.
It's weird how graduation's coming up so soon... I don't know what I'm gonna do without a lot of people. There's someone in particular who... I dunno. I don't think anything will ever happen with us, at least anything of substance, but I definitely feel that there's been a LOT that's remained unsaid and probably will until someone makes a move before he graduates. Naturally, by move I mean the initiative to talk about things, get things out on the table... someone very wise tonight mentioned that she was sick of games... and I am, too. I know "life's a game and we're all players," but how does that make us real people with real emotions? And my advice for her kept being "just don't act like you care, don't act like you're hurt." Well, sometimes, people do get hurt. And it's a pretty shitty relationship where one person has to hide even little things for fear of messing up a dynamic. So, maybe it really is best unsaid, but somehow, I doubt that. Should I be the mature one and just initiate the conversation, like a mature adult would? Who knows.
Vancouver's in a week exactly. I'm excited to go shopping and pick out hot outfits. It's gonna be a BLAST.
Mmmmm, I need to sleep. Tonight's been fun/a little dramatic. Just a case of me being over-sensitive, I think. I tend to do that, it sucks for whoever's on the receiving end. Why do I have to be so pissy about things? It's high time I learned how to "chill."
Derrrr. I feel like I have so much to do tomorrow. My grandma flies in at noon... I'm not gonna go pick her up, but they'll probably be pissed if I'm not home to greet her. But you know what? I have my own life, I have shit to do. So if I'm out doing these things when she comes home, oh well. Anyway, they won't be home till I'm guessing 1 at the earliest... so I need to do the following before then:
.5) call and schedule an appt
1) go to Walgreens and buy some things
2) come home and do some things
3) drive to UW to go tanning
4) pick up some clothes from my apartment
5) maybe buy some books?
6) come home, shower
7) hang out with grandma
8) work at 5:30, hooray
I need to do my nails at some point, too. Meh. All I wanna do tomorrow is lay in bed and do nothing... kinda like... today! But I can't do that again. Oh well.
I've been kinda cranky lately 'cause I haven't heard from Vesko in a while. I really hope he's doing okay.
It's weird how graduation's coming up so soon... I don't know what I'm gonna do without a lot of people. There's someone in particular who... I dunno. I don't think anything will ever happen with us, at least anything of substance, but I definitely feel that there's been a LOT that's remained unsaid and probably will until someone makes a move before he graduates. Naturally, by move I mean the initiative to talk about things, get things out on the table... someone very wise tonight mentioned that she was sick of games... and I am, too. I know "life's a game and we're all players," but how does that make us real people with real emotions? And my advice for her kept being "just don't act like you care, don't act like you're hurt." Well, sometimes, people do get hurt. And it's a pretty shitty relationship where one person has to hide even little things for fear of messing up a dynamic. So, maybe it really is best unsaid, but somehow, I doubt that. Should I be the mature one and just initiate the conversation, like a mature adult would? Who knows.
Vancouver's in a week exactly. I'm excited to go shopping and pick out hot outfits. It's gonna be a BLAST.
Mmmmm, I need to sleep. Tonight's been fun/a little dramatic. Just a case of me being over-sensitive, I think. I tend to do that, it sucks for whoever's on the receiving end. Why do I have to be so pissy about things? It's high time I learned how to "chill."