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[litttlecreature]

they gotta hot dog stand set up in downtown augusta. downtown a-town, like me and sam call it. it's that time a year. they have em advertised on the sign out front as "hawt DAWGS" in either regular or chili. you can smell em from a mile away

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[litttlecreature]

thank ya, ellis - i appreciate it. i've been through lotsa mental health shit myself, when i was younger.. been into the hospital a few times, spent 6 or 7 years trying to find the right meds/therapist, etc. so having gone through that has helped me a lot with matt.. we've always been able to talk about this shit openly and actually understand what it's like for each other.

i'm sorry you're goin through the same shit.. fucking rough. matt's been manic for a few weeks now. can hardly sleep, mind's goin a mile a minute, can't keep his mind on one track long enough to have a conversation.. but as well as bipolar, he's schizoaffective. which adds this whole paranoia aspect to the situation. that's the part that's been hard for me to deal with - he's been SO paranoid. he hasn't been able to trust anyone at all lately. me, our friends, his brother, & his doctors included. he's pulled some pretty fucked up shit, and i know it's not his fault, but it's been rough. he's kinda snapped out of that the past few days, long enough for us to talk about how fucking miserable he's feeling and what he should do, counting out the taking-his-own-life option (fuck). so today he admitted himself to the hospital.

blah. i'm relieved and worried and sick-to-my-stomach and hopeful and i wish i could be with him right now but i can't. and it's probably best that way at the moment.

thanks for the support. same goes for you. call me anytime. my number's 441.9780.

be well dude.