meme - let's try this again

[littpiski]

So acceptreble alerted me to the fact that you can't comment anonymously on a protected entry - which I totally forgot. So here's the REAL one.

"Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your

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[anonymous]

for the most part, i seem to make pretty good impressions on people... but there are times when i really miss the mark, even when i think i'm doing all right. example: i recently hung out with a few new people on thursday night and had a great time. throughout the evening, they were saying that i should hang out with them later in the week and that they'd call me. then we got more and more drunk and though i think i maintained my composure, i worry that i became overbearing (which sometimes happens when i drink). it's tuesday already, and i've seen facebook statuses updated about all of their plans, but they never invited me.

i know that you can't make good impressions on everyone, and that you have to accept that and cut your losses, but i have to admit that i get really discouraged. i'm a naturally intense person, and that it isn't generally received well by most people. hiding it can be disheartening.

combine this with my extreme self-centeredness, and the added of my serious propensity for guilt, and you have one neurotic individual. it sucks, to be sure.

[littpiski]

what you wrote is what i try to say every day...except you have infinitely more eloquence than i. what i've noticed is that a lot of people tell me to chill the fuck out. and then a lot of times i feel like my intensity is wasted, or mostly misused into feeding my neuroticism. also: i think my low self-esteem is a defense mechanism for checking the fact that i'm pretty self-centered. anyways, if you ever want to talk about this i would be really really curious to find out who this is...and we can be awkward together (although i'm sure this defeats the point of anonymous posting).

the other thing: it makes me wonder where all the people who would appreciate the intense are.