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Its been a while i guess myspace and facebook have really taken over and barely anyone is on livejournal anymore i remmember when we were ll about the lj and now thats the last thing on anyones mind.
so lately i think pretty much very one has been on a slump. i was talking to an old friend of mine today and when he looked at me on top of everything telling me ive gotten a lil chunky wich didnt settle well in my stomach he was like what do u do with ur life all day and i literally said nothing and its true but i dont find it horrible like ive been in dire need of a job and its not like i dont look i just dont have the patience if jobs could fly out of the sky and offer me anything i would take it on the spot. he told me i was depressed and maybe i am but he only good thing out of anything is that i graduate in may finally then off to start the bachelors wooohoooo closer and closer to the real world .
as for boys things are there and seem to not be moving i remember when i was battling over 3 guys at one time and now i dont have shit is because ive lost my touch horribleee i need it backkk and i keep going after the same guys that has repeatedly told me that were just friends and blah blah even if he does confuse me alot of times and my friends and his friends say differently but what are you gong to the thing that bothers me is that he seems to not care sometimes and then when he wants something he calls me wtffff not fair i want to be his friend but ts hard to do that when you have feelings for the person it just gets tiring idk im just trying to be patience .....it gets hard though cuz im ready to commit sheesh last night even though i did randomly hook up with this guy i definately was there treating him liek my bf give him cosquilltas on his back i love it im ready im ready love come find meeeeee
ughhhh so i cant believe im not even out on a friday night gushing out everything and im here in tally and everything too and i got pretty shitty last night but thats as far as it goes ughhhhh i hate being sick
miss you
so lately i think pretty much very one has been on a slump. i was talking to an old friend of mine today and when he looked at me on top of everything telling me ive gotten a lil chunky wich didnt settle well in my stomach he was like what do u do with ur life all day and i literally said nothing and its true but i dont find it horrible like ive been in dire need of a job and its not like i dont look i just dont have the patience if jobs could fly out of the sky and offer me anything i would take it on the spot. he told me i was depressed and maybe i am but he only good thing out of anything is that i graduate in may finally then off to start the bachelors wooohoooo closer and closer to the real world .
as for boys things are there and seem to not be moving i remember when i was battling over 3 guys at one time and now i dont have shit is because ive lost my touch horribleee i need it backkk and i keep going after the same guys that has repeatedly told me that were just friends and blah blah even if he does confuse me alot of times and my friends and his friends say differently but what are you gong to the thing that bothers me is that he seems to not care sometimes and then when he wants something he calls me wtffff not fair i want to be his friend but ts hard to do that when you have feelings for the person it just gets tiring idk im just trying to be patience .....it gets hard though cuz im ready to commit sheesh last night even though i did randomly hook up with this guy i definately was there treating him liek my bf give him cosquilltas on his back i love it im ready im ready love come find meeeeee
ughhhh so i cant believe im not even out on a friday night gushing out everything and im here in tally and everything too and i got pretty shitty last night but thats as far as it goes ughhhhh i hate being sick
miss you