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Okay so I've been thinking even more .. The thing is, people in Winman are too emotional and they gossip way too much. And I'll even say it, I DO gossip TONS. They lie alot, and I do too. We depend on so many people, which needs to stop. I'm becoming more of my own person, I don't // can't trust many people anymore, I don't do what they tell me to, I don't need them. I'll do things by myself. I don't need to hang out with them. I don't need to talk to them. I don't need to trust them. I don't need them to tell me what I can // can't do. They don't like me, I don't have to like them back. They can talk shit all they want, but I'm not saying anything about them. I really seriously don't care anymore. I have enough good friends to help me get through stuff and whatnot, and I have the best boyfriend in the world. Everything's fine. I have my good days and by bad days, but I've been looking on the brightside of everything lately, and things are getting better. I guess life is what you make it or something?
So Bianca's Dad is sick, which isn't cool at all. He went into surgery last night and has an infection in his blood, and it's working it's way to his heart. It's scary how things happen so suddenly. I've been thinking about that too lately. Like if you watch a movie, everything just .. happens. It falls into place perfectly. This morning in Science, Brianna was randomly making all these weird faces .. Without even thinking about it. We do so many things without thinking. It's so weird. - Anyways - Bianca, I really hope your Dad gets better. Don't forget that I'm here for you to talk to, I know what losing a parent is like. I hope everything turns out alright. I love you B.
Today was my like, what?, Third day coming home from school early? I went to Art and Science, and then I left. I painted in Art =] How lovely <3 And umm we watched a movie in Science. Which was loser-ish. And no one payed attention ; we were all too busy watching Bri make weird faces.
I've decided I'm no longer thinking about Nick Roland. Whenever I think about him, I cry. And he only talks to me to yell at me, and I don't need it. I thought I like needed him or something, and I don't. Jess Furman's away message says "hanging out with nick" .. And I was starting to think about it. She's a nice girl, and Nick's a nice boy .. He's just not nice to me. I DON'T NEED HIM. I have a wonderful boyfriend who I completely adore. And things are great. I don't even need to think about Nick. At all =]
So Bianca's Dad is sick, which isn't cool at all. He went into surgery last night and has an infection in his blood, and it's working it's way to his heart. It's scary how things happen so suddenly. I've been thinking about that too lately. Like if you watch a movie, everything just .. happens. It falls into place perfectly. This morning in Science, Brianna was randomly making all these weird faces .. Without even thinking about it. We do so many things without thinking. It's so weird. - Anyways - Bianca, I really hope your Dad gets better. Don't forget that I'm here for you to talk to, I know what losing a parent is like. I hope everything turns out alright. I love you B.
Today was my like, what?, Third day coming home from school early? I went to Art and Science, and then I left. I painted in Art =] How lovely <3 And umm we watched a movie in Science. Which was loser-ish. And no one payed attention ; we were all too busy watching Bri make weird faces.
I've decided I'm no longer thinking about Nick Roland. Whenever I think about him, I cry. And he only talks to me to yell at me, and I don't need it. I thought I like needed him or something, and I don't. Jess Furman's away message says "hanging out with nick" .. And I was starting to think about it. She's a nice girl, and Nick's a nice boy .. He's just not nice to me. I DON'T NEED HIM. I have a wonderful boyfriend who I completely adore. And things are great. I don't even need to think about Nick. At all =]