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i try to like other boys and feel attracted to them but then i think of kissing them and i start to gag because it's not john. it's scarey how one person can have such control over you. I just keep remembering our first kiss and how there was no making out, just long juicy kisses. my heart fluttered, my stomach bumped all that crap. we would've been so good together if he just told the truth and hung out with me like normal boyfriends and girlfriends do. i hope i see him at atreyu next sunday so maybe i'll get over him.... acctually what i'm really hoping is that hell fall back into me but you know where that'll get us? no where. because he's always felt passionate about me, he just can't dedicate himself.
stupid retard nutface.
he called the other night and said that he's ready to give me 100%. what a joke. i told him i would call after work so i did and he answered to say that he was still working and he'd call after. did that go down? noooope. did i expect him to pull through? (all together now) nope.
loser. every one of my friends want to karate chop his ass. watch out john philips, you're wanted.
stupid retard nutface.
he called the other night and said that he's ready to give me 100%. what a joke. i told him i would call after work so i did and he answered to say that he was still working and he'd call after. did that go down? noooope. did i expect him to pull through? (all together now) nope.
loser. every one of my friends want to karate chop his ass. watch out john philips, you're wanted.