Adulthood.
I am sitting at work watching Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. I remember when this book came out and how excited I was to run back home and read it asap. I finished it in 2 days I believe. It makes me sad to think this series is ending soon. I was so sad when the books ended two years ago but now within the next 2 years, it's all over. I've been reading Harry Potter since I was 12-13 and to think it's been apart of my life for a decade now and soon it will be done makes me sad. But it makes me happy that I am 23 and I still can hold onto my youth like this. I am EXTREMELY stoked for the Islands of Adventure Wizarding World of Harry Potter. I think I will buy an annual pass to Universal for this next year once it opens. It will totally be worth it. Anyways, enough of that.
It is December 18 and it is the end of 2009. I cannot believe this year is over. This had to have been the fastest year that passed. I have been through so much this year, I can't even begin to explain. I didn't go to school for the last half of the year because of my work schedule. I am still a nanny/personal assistant and I love it very much. It works perfectly with any other schedules I wish to make and it's great. I don't even really consider it a job but I must say it is since I get paid for what I do haha. I am going back to school in January and I am not stopping until I graduate. I want to get my degree and live my dream of moving to New York and just enjoying life =)
This year has had a lot of ups and downs but I have taken them all with a smile and kept pushing. I am no longer a child that will whine and cry about everything. I am an adult and I must roll with the punches and realize that life is unpredictable. I can only seize the day and live for it like no other, which I feel I have been doing very well the last half of the year.
I got out of my first real relationship this year and it killed me. I loved Cory with all my heart but sometimes you just see things differently and I knew we weren't meant to be together anymore in that sort of way. I do still talk to him frequently and I do love him...just not in that way anymore. I think we get along better as friends anyway. I traveled a lot more than I have traveled in a long time. In March I went to Virginia to visit my biffle Tara for a weekend and it was worth every penny. In July, .333 (me Tara & Ash) took over New York for 6 days and it was one of the best trips I have ever been on. New York is where my heart is. I feel nothing but whole when I am there and this trip made me realize that is where I need to be once I am done with school. Then in October I went to LA with Ash & Kristin to visit my Niki!!! It was one of the most memorable experiences I have ever had. California is a magical place. All you Floridians who say it is like Florida with mountains, oh boy, you are seriously mistaken. It is much much more. I had such an amazing time out there and I think that trip changed my life completely. In between those major trips, I went to Orlando, Tampa, Tallahassee and many other places in Florida. All well worth it. I moved 3 times in the last year and everytime it was worth all the sweat and trouble that went into it. I lived with an amazing mother who treated me as her own (thanks Liamom), I moved in with my other half and for that month in the apartment, we owned South Florida (and tons of guys haha) and then her father and step mom took us both in and we lived it up there. Now I moved into my own apartment with my sister Tara. I cannot express how free I feel when I wake up and I know it's my place. I am not paying rent and am a full-fledged adult. I love it. Plus, you can't beat waking up knowing you have one of the most trust-worthy and amazing people to always be there for you. And we have the cutest dog ever Beast aka Spikey D so it's pure bliss. I wake up everyday with a smile on my face and it sticks throughout most of the day now =)
I got two tattoos this year that are probably the most meaningful tattoos I have ever gotten. I got a Kurt Halsey piece on my foot. It is a bird with headphones on and at the end of the headphones cord are my fathers initials SM. I have ALWAYS wanted a tattoo in dedication to my father and when I saw this artwork and thought of my father, I knew I had to get it. I like the bird because it makes me feel like my dad flew away but I know he's always hovering over to watch over me and protect me. And the headphones were just a dealbreaker because nothing more than music has gotten me through my father's death and any other hard time I've had in my life. Whenever I look at it, I feel such joy. My father will always be in my heart. As I have grown older, it has been harder for me to cope with his death. When I was younger I guess I never knew what exactly I would be missing out on but as more big things have happened in my life (graduation, colorguard, drum corps, serious boyfriends, moving out on my own) it makes me wish I had my father here to help me. I am strong and I handle it well but there's not a day that goes by that I don't miss him and wish he was here with me. I got that tattoo on Father's Day...it just felt right to get it that day since every year when that day passes I feel incomplete. This helped me fill the whole in my heart just a little more. I also got 'swim' tattooed on my right wrist. One of my biggest heroes and influences over the past 8 years or so has been Andrew McMahon (lead singer of SoCo and Jack's Mannequin). He is just a huge inspiration and his music speaks to me and helps me through so much. He wrote a song called 'Swim'. After he was diagnosed with leukemia, the music he wrote has been so moving. Swim was the last song he wrote for 'The Glass Passenger' and it's about keeping your head above the water and never letting yourself drown and always looking for brighter days even when it seems like you're in your darkest. I saw Andrew do a solo show a few months back and when he performed 'Swim' I just knew I needed that tattooed on me, it was so moving. I got it on my wrist so I can see it all the time and so when I am down or in need of a cheer up, it reminds me to keep on swimming, don't drown. Thank you Andrew McMahon.
I have never felt more grown up and more alive in my life than I have within these past few months. I do everything I wish to do and know that even if there are consequences, they are worth it because life is something precious to be enjoyed. I am extremely content where I am and I will try and be this optimistic and happy as much as possible.
I have no clue what 2010 will bring but I know with my attitude and what I want to accomplish, it will definitely be a hell of a year. Bring it on new decade =)
-Lauren
PS-I will update way more in 2010, I feel it necessary and appropriate.
<3
It is December 18 and it is the end of 2009. I cannot believe this year is over. This had to have been the fastest year that passed. I have been through so much this year, I can't even begin to explain. I didn't go to school for the last half of the year because of my work schedule. I am still a nanny/personal assistant and I love it very much. It works perfectly with any other schedules I wish to make and it's great. I don't even really consider it a job but I must say it is since I get paid for what I do haha. I am going back to school in January and I am not stopping until I graduate. I want to get my degree and live my dream of moving to New York and just enjoying life =)
This year has had a lot of ups and downs but I have taken them all with a smile and kept pushing. I am no longer a child that will whine and cry about everything. I am an adult and I must roll with the punches and realize that life is unpredictable. I can only seize the day and live for it like no other, which I feel I have been doing very well the last half of the year.
I got out of my first real relationship this year and it killed me. I loved Cory with all my heart but sometimes you just see things differently and I knew we weren't meant to be together anymore in that sort of way. I do still talk to him frequently and I do love him...just not in that way anymore. I think we get along better as friends anyway. I traveled a lot more than I have traveled in a long time. In March I went to Virginia to visit my biffle Tara for a weekend and it was worth every penny. In July, .333 (me Tara & Ash) took over New York for 6 days and it was one of the best trips I have ever been on. New York is where my heart is. I feel nothing but whole when I am there and this trip made me realize that is where I need to be once I am done with school. Then in October I went to LA with Ash & Kristin to visit my Niki!!! It was one of the most memorable experiences I have ever had. California is a magical place. All you Floridians who say it is like Florida with mountains, oh boy, you are seriously mistaken. It is much much more. I had such an amazing time out there and I think that trip changed my life completely. In between those major trips, I went to Orlando, Tampa, Tallahassee and many other places in Florida. All well worth it. I moved 3 times in the last year and everytime it was worth all the sweat and trouble that went into it. I lived with an amazing mother who treated me as her own (thanks Liamom), I moved in with my other half and for that month in the apartment, we owned South Florida (and tons of guys haha) and then her father and step mom took us both in and we lived it up there. Now I moved into my own apartment with my sister Tara. I cannot express how free I feel when I wake up and I know it's my place. I am not paying rent and am a full-fledged adult. I love it. Plus, you can't beat waking up knowing you have one of the most trust-worthy and amazing people to always be there for you. And we have the cutest dog ever Beast aka Spikey D so it's pure bliss. I wake up everyday with a smile on my face and it sticks throughout most of the day now =)
I got two tattoos this year that are probably the most meaningful tattoos I have ever gotten. I got a Kurt Halsey piece on my foot. It is a bird with headphones on and at the end of the headphones cord are my fathers initials SM. I have ALWAYS wanted a tattoo in dedication to my father and when I saw this artwork and thought of my father, I knew I had to get it. I like the bird because it makes me feel like my dad flew away but I know he's always hovering over to watch over me and protect me. And the headphones were just a dealbreaker because nothing more than music has gotten me through my father's death and any other hard time I've had in my life. Whenever I look at it, I feel such joy. My father will always be in my heart. As I have grown older, it has been harder for me to cope with his death. When I was younger I guess I never knew what exactly I would be missing out on but as more big things have happened in my life (graduation, colorguard, drum corps, serious boyfriends, moving out on my own) it makes me wish I had my father here to help me. I am strong and I handle it well but there's not a day that goes by that I don't miss him and wish he was here with me. I got that tattoo on Father's Day...it just felt right to get it that day since every year when that day passes I feel incomplete. This helped me fill the whole in my heart just a little more. I also got 'swim' tattooed on my right wrist. One of my biggest heroes and influences over the past 8 years or so has been Andrew McMahon (lead singer of SoCo and Jack's Mannequin). He is just a huge inspiration and his music speaks to me and helps me through so much. He wrote a song called 'Swim'. After he was diagnosed with leukemia, the music he wrote has been so moving. Swim was the last song he wrote for 'The Glass Passenger' and it's about keeping your head above the water and never letting yourself drown and always looking for brighter days even when it seems like you're in your darkest. I saw Andrew do a solo show a few months back and when he performed 'Swim' I just knew I needed that tattooed on me, it was so moving. I got it on my wrist so I can see it all the time and so when I am down or in need of a cheer up, it reminds me to keep on swimming, don't drown. Thank you Andrew McMahon.
I have never felt more grown up and more alive in my life than I have within these past few months. I do everything I wish to do and know that even if there are consequences, they are worth it because life is something precious to be enjoyed. I am extremely content where I am and I will try and be this optimistic and happy as much as possible.
I have no clue what 2010 will bring but I know with my attitude and what I want to accomplish, it will definitely be a hell of a year. Bring it on new decade =)
-Lauren
PS-I will update way more in 2010, I feel it necessary and appropriate.
<3