Jul 30, 2007 00:01
Okay, so let's take a moment to disect this question "Are you excited yet?" Why the heck would I be getting married if I wasn't excited in some manner about it? Getting married is NOT a mundane thing... if it is, then you probably shouldn't be getting married. And what's this "yet" business? Is there some special time I have to wait till I get excited? Why is this also the first question you ask me... and when I don't give the answer you're looking for, the conversation reaches a dead end... I am not my wedding. I am still me.
and no.
I am not fucking excited. STOP ASKING ME.
Okay, so I'm not in a panicked mode of questioning the whole thing, contemplating the horror that I might have made a grievious mistake; that's passed. I'm just not talksofastnonestopinsanelyonandonaboutit excited like everyone seems to be implying a soontobebride should be. It's just meh... this getting married thing.. it's not a feeling that's shallow and surface level. It's deep down, secure, not something that I can rattle off without a thought like a script everytime somoene asks me the same stupid question over and over... what I feel, changes, amazes me, comforts me... and yeah.