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So Lent begins tomorrow. My church has never done anything with it, so this is something new. I have a lot of friends that I grew up with that always celebrated Ash Wednesday and stuff though, and always heard about what they were fasting. I want to fast something for sure, I just can't decide what.
I thought about doing what most people usually do: candy, junk food, soda, etc. But I don't really rely on those things so much. Or have a lot of it on a daily basis, so I dunno how much of an impact it would make. I could give up food entirely. Fast for the whole 40 days. But then I thought about it and realized how weak that would make me. And I have a lot of activities going on right now. Sure, God would give me strength if I gave it up for Him, and I'd have to rely on him a heck of a lot more for that. But then the thought entered my head that I would probably lose a lot of weight during that time. As soon as that thought entered my head I knew that I couldn't fast food altogether because underneath it all I wouldn't have the purest intentions. So that was ruled out. (I'm not saying that that is everyone's intention or that other people have that thought. It's just me. I'm so excited for Amber and Veronica for doing their fast and know that God is going to do amazing things in their lives. That's just not for me. I just wanted to make that clear. lol)
So now I'm thinking...what is it that takes away most of my life? What is sucking away my time that could better be used for God? What is causing me to miss out on a lot of opportunities? TV? Well, no cause I don't watch it all that much. Monday nights, and sometimes during dinner. So that left one other thing: Internet. I spend hours on here every day. From email to myspace to greatestjournal to AIM. And then I'll be too tired or just "not in the mood" to do devotions or whatever. So for now that's what I'm thinking about fasting. And I'm praying to see if that's what God wants. I have a few guidelines. Like I know that some people need to contact me through email. So I'd probably leave that open. But it'd be for business emails. And I'd limit it to like a half hour for the whole day just for emails. No AIM cause that probably takes the most of my time. I haven't decided if I'll continue to post things on here or not. Like a once a week thing cause sometimes venting on here helps a lot. But then again, I should vent to God more. But I write my emotions out better than speak and type a lot faster than I write. No...no greatestjournal. And no myspace either. Ok looks like I have it worked out. I'm still praying for guidance though.
That is all for now. Don't feel like writing about my day. I have homework to do, and it's already 10. Good night
I thought about doing what most people usually do: candy, junk food, soda, etc. But I don't really rely on those things so much. Or have a lot of it on a daily basis, so I dunno how much of an impact it would make. I could give up food entirely. Fast for the whole 40 days. But then I thought about it and realized how weak that would make me. And I have a lot of activities going on right now. Sure, God would give me strength if I gave it up for Him, and I'd have to rely on him a heck of a lot more for that. But then the thought entered my head that I would probably lose a lot of weight during that time. As soon as that thought entered my head I knew that I couldn't fast food altogether because underneath it all I wouldn't have the purest intentions. So that was ruled out. (I'm not saying that that is everyone's intention or that other people have that thought. It's just me. I'm so excited for Amber and Veronica for doing their fast and know that God is going to do amazing things in their lives. That's just not for me. I just wanted to make that clear. lol)
So now I'm thinking...what is it that takes away most of my life? What is sucking away my time that could better be used for God? What is causing me to miss out on a lot of opportunities? TV? Well, no cause I don't watch it all that much. Monday nights, and sometimes during dinner. So that left one other thing: Internet. I spend hours on here every day. From email to myspace to greatestjournal to AIM. And then I'll be too tired or just "not in the mood" to do devotions or whatever. So for now that's what I'm thinking about fasting. And I'm praying to see if that's what God wants. I have a few guidelines. Like I know that some people need to contact me through email. So I'd probably leave that open. But it'd be for business emails. And I'd limit it to like a half hour for the whole day just for emails. No AIM cause that probably takes the most of my time. I haven't decided if I'll continue to post things on here or not. Like a once a week thing cause sometimes venting on here helps a lot. But then again, I should vent to God more. But I write my emotions out better than speak and type a lot faster than I write. No...no greatestjournal. And no myspace either. Ok looks like I have it worked out. I'm still praying for guidance though.
That is all for now. Don't feel like writing about my day. I have homework to do, and it's already 10. Good night